Joey's Dairy

Fulfilling Life

2010-06-06T11:15:00.003+08:00

A happy picture of my extended family in Macau. Almost every time when I look at my family photos, my mind would wander into the thick woods of my future, with questions running through my mind. Some of these questions, I find it hard to answer myself.

Will my family be this complete and happy? Will I find the perfect woman who will be that heart and soul of my family? Will I really be the disciplinarian of my own family? Or the loving father that pampers the kids? Will I live long enough to see my great grandchildren?

I am just another organism that survives in this big blue world. What can I ask for to live a fulfilling life? Riches? Is riches enough to tide my life over just simply living upon my material needs? Knowledge? Is having more knowledge going to comfort me to realize that I am actually living in this dangerous, deceiving world? Sex and other physical needs like eating, drinking? Is physical needs and temptation even a long term solution and answer to my question of a fulfilled life? Is it even morally correct at times?

To live a fulfilled life, you have to understand the intrinsic and extrinsic happiness.

Of course, intrinsic happiness. It is the pursuit of what satisfies you as a human being living in this world. Many philosophers defined or determined what this happiness is or for. Some will say intrinsic happiness is attaining peace at heart, the attainment of physical pleasures of life, the attainment of the every single gold coin in this world etc. Out of all these schools of thought, what I subscribe to as the intrinsic happiness of my life, is this four letters, love. What I'm saying is not just limited to man and woman love, but the love that forms within the numerous bonds that man will form between his family, his friends, his pet, the beggar he sees on the the street, the love of his life, and many many more. I simply live and strive on loving the people around me. I will give anything in my life to make that person who is close to me to see her/him smile, because I live on what the love that people returns to me, eating the fruits that may have been borne by the trees that I have nutured and cared for.

Extrinsic happiness is not the kind of external happiness and smiles you show to others but the happiness that surrounds you, a form of happiness that people shares because of the existence of that special person. Why will life be fulfilling with it? Imagine you having a time of your life, being so happy that everything you want is around you, but without the people you love to share that happiness with you, will your cup of happiness be simply half-filled? Even with intrinsic happiness, your heart will simply be hollow area and this intrinsic happiness will dissipate eventually. When you die, everyone who comes to your funeral, will simply know you as a hermit. No one will a shed a tear for you, or feel anyway sad, because you didn't matter, because you never share that happiness within you to others, the world simply will continue revolving without you.

So ask yourself this, are you living a fulfilled life?

You

2010-05-20T23:44:00.003+08:00

In about 6 hours time, I am going to fly off to Hong Kong to start off a relaxing trip, after tiresome weeks before this special day. The weeks that I toiled in the extremely cold air-conditioned courts, lockup, CJC band room, Performing Arts Centre and in the cold rain that poured down on me when I was on duty around the UOB building had finally led to this break that was much needed for my tired body. However, of all times I had left overseas, this time round, my heart really felt heavy and worried. Especially for my love one, the one who treat as equal to my own family members whom had been around me for years.

My lovely Koala Bear, I know you are going through an especially hard and difficult transitional phase at work, which was further compounded by the stressful environment at home and a lack of decent sleep for the past few days. It is an exceptionally trying time for you to go through so many elements of stress, sadness and regrets, yet stuck with a boyfriend who can hardly really understand the things that are pressuring you day by day, night by night. However, my lovely Koala, though he may be a fool in such matters of the heart, your little Joey shares your roller coaster bound emotions as he rides through the days with you. When you are at the top of roller coaster, Joey feels like he is on top of the world, his emotions running higher than the tallest mountains that reign the earth. When you dip into that slow low curve of the roller coaster ride, Joey feels like he is in the deepest depths of hell, his heart sinking into the base of his stomach. He is too perhaps the only few who really care and worry about you wherever he may be in this big globe that never fail to turn when you are around.

Koala Bear, though I am the most incapable to give you the best or understand you the fullest in this world, but I will say that I am the most capable of loving you and being there for you when you are happy, sad, jealous, grieving etc. Dear, please do take care of yourself when I am not around and I really do hope that the days will be better for you in time to come. Your happy face has etched deeply into my heart and I am set to give you what little to have to give you this happiness forever. Please take care of yourself when I am not around k? I will always think of and be worried for you wherever my feet lands.

Though this 3 words may have been wrongly used in many instances, but I know somewhere in our hearts, we both know this is at its truest and fullest meaning whenever I say it to you while I hug and kiss you.

I love you.

Always.

The Return

2010-05-09T15:04:00.003+08:00

It is certainly a long time since I last written anything on this blog, or in fact, anything at all on paper, upon entry to my mundane but life changing experience in National Service. For the past 10 months or so, my life had changed so drastically. I am no longer that young innocent little boy, living in his protected cocoon away from the dark and dangerous world around him. I am no longer that nerd who simply only buried his head into books books books, which are basically just theories rather than the reality of what is actually happening around him. I am no longer that hermit who could live alone without feeding off the wonderful friendships and bonds that existed within his social boundaries. I am too no longer that unfit boy who is incapable of running 2.4 km without suffering from near fatal heart failures, stitches that felt like thousands of needles poking through your kidneys and legs that felt as heavy as large boulders. Not to mention, I am not longer that single man who wanders around his world alone without a companion by his side.
Exposed to the crude realities of the world, I had indeed changed for the better, in fact into what people termed as a "man". Over my course of work, I had seen what human beings truly are and what they are capable of doing, overturning that fantasy I had about men over my growing years. I had suffered physical, verbal and emotional abuse and threats in that dark place, and also witnessed terrible events that flashed in my mind when I listened or read each story behind every man before me. Even so, I saw some light that penetrated the pitch black, gloomy side of our society. I saw how families supported each other in desperate times. I saw one's repentance, resolute to change and tears of regret when a fair sentence was passed upon their moment of folly back then. I also saw how benevolent and fair Justice can be. These experiences shaped my perspective of what the world is and also made me that tough man who can face such things in life without blinking or shedding a tear, yet handle and solve such matters with a true human-like heart.
Also with these changes, I have finally met that woman who might have been send by the heavens to my side. She may be 25, an entire generation gap apart from me, but I have not realized this so far ever since I had been in a relationship with her. When she put her head on my shoulders, hold my hand in her warm ones and kiss me on my cheek, I can feel that I am in sync with her and at the same, a strong urge to protect her and keep her warm flows through my heart. Many had wondered why I fell in love with her, all I can say that all of this boils down to her simple yet powerful ability to care for someone. She is that only one who I have seen who can put one's feelings before hers always before she made a decision, that someone who can cook nice meals for the people she love, who can move and speak with grace, who love and cares about the small little animals around her like the stray cats below her block and the injured bird we saw along the beach, who loves and understand words and music like I do, who love colourful big dresses that the Japanese favoured, who can melt Joey with her hugs. All these small little things that constitutes her is what made me go all so crazy and so in love with her. Thank you for being my side always. Huijun.

An update, An outlet for my feelings

2009-07-11T20:46:00.002+08:00

Day,Night,Day,Night...
24 hours, 1440 minutes, 86400 seconds...
30th January...
The last post of real grief...
Fresh start?
Or just a plain loss of any feelings?
Just a working machine to churn out wonderful results over and over again?
Or what I really yearn for something else?
Is it a crime just to forgive and forget the past?
Why rake it up when everything has just settled down?
Why accuse me of what I am not?
Why can't we remain what we are?
Just remember.
That's all.

-

2009-01-30T21:10:00.002+08:00

Why i try so hard? Why do i reach for the impossible? Why am i so deep into this? Why am i putting my heart into this? Is it a crime? Is it wrong? Am i dumb? Is it just me? Just useless? Am i so horrendous? Am i such a failure? A bastard? Uncaring? Boring? Stupid? Should i regret? Is it so easy to take it so calmly?

Just some thoughts running through.... No worries....

CNY POST!!

2009-01-25T22:40:00.002+08:00

As usual for the past few weeks, I am back to blog my redundant life in NS which was not interesting apart from the joint class with the regulars in PDT =p.... Well this post will be more of a sum up of my past year.. Academically-wise, I have to admit that i did quite well after getting off from a rocky start early 2008 in CJC common tests, finally achieving a UES grade points sufficient enough to get into NUS by prelims... Band wise, it didn't start well especially during the period of Con Fuoco however things seem to heal and look up in June when the band went to Brisbane.. I can say that the band of 2008 did manage to end beautifully coupled with wonderful memories!!

2008, a year to remember for relationships... I have to admit,this year out of my 6 years in SJI and CJC was the most fruitful in establishing relationships with others. In class, I guess i managed to build and strengthen on existing friendships with my classmates which effective brought me closer to different groups of individuals, a far cry from my estranged relationships in 2007... In Band, relationships among the Percussion section remained particularly strong even with the entry of fascinating juniors like Astrid, Youqin, Paolo and Marc... Not to mention my best friends who are in band, Rishi, Phoebe and Grace... Life in CJC would not be bearable without their support and shoulders whenever i am down or in need... I love you guys...! With special mention, the person whom i have actual constant contact with outside school, Zuxin! I can't rmb when or how our friendship became so tight despite getting from a loose footing in December... However you have been my only source of light in the outside world apart from my friends within CJC or SJI, the one who occasionally listened to my ranting, perhaps the one who ever made NS actually livable... Thank you so much!! All the people i mentioned above, may you all have a good year ahead and live well!!! Happy Chinese New Year!!!! Year of the MOOMOO...!!

PS : "... i don't know anymore. do i have friends? like, with the snap of a finger and they will come to be with me? no, i think only parents will do that... for even friends cant be that selfless to drop everything they have and come to me, or even others."
=> A true friend who truly care and love you will do anything in their capacity, sometimes even at the expense of their lives, without the need for fear or favour to help you in need. I may not be the most admirable, talented or even interesting person out there that u know, but i am willing to be that true friend who will do anything for you just for one cause, "Your happiness". I know it sounds simplistic and a "easy to say" thing, however, once a friend, i promise not to leave u when u are in the deepest ends of earth, and as a non-outstanding individual, the only thing i can do is to honour that promise. All of these came from the bottom of my heart! Cheer up =)

New week but new start?

2009-01-18T15:43:00.001+08:00

Yoyoyo!! I am back blogging again!! Well, this week seems considerably better as compared to last week!! I just started up my law studies (which could be interesting at times or utterly boring when it gets too dry!) this week which had an effect of getting rid of PT sessions for the rest of the week =p.... Well, despite lack of PT sessions, I did surprising well for IPPT especially for my 2.4 km run!!!! Though i still failed SBJ (cos i screwed up my first attempt) and pull ups (sometime i just cant do), but my 2.4km run achieved an unprecedent 11.47!!! A complete 2 mins improvement!! Woah....... I guess NS is good in a way that it helps me train and get fit during this period of time, anything afterwards will be up to me =p.... Now my aim is to get 6 pec and really really huge biceps =p....

Weekend basis wise, on Friday, my family did manage to mount a great surprise for my sis by booking a room at Raffles Fairmount hotel for her 18th birthday celebrations!!! That is far better than my 18th b day celebrations last year -.-... I too gave her $50 out of my pay to get her a suitable b day present for herself =)....
Saturday wise, I did had an extremely good workout especially with my NS friends by playing soccer at NYP.... Oh man... NYP's campus looks far better than CJC =(.... In the late morning, I went swimming with Zuxin at Yio Chu Kang Swimming Complex =p.... Due to miscommunication, we met later than expected and she paid for my entry into the pool... Paiseh =p.... After 20 - 30 + laps, i gotta admit that i am an extremely slow swimmer after she lapped me for 4 laps!! And i dont exactly look like a swimsuit model in my swimming trunks!!! =(.... At least she looked far better lol =)... Then at night, my family pigged out at Raffles Hotel buffet =p... Made my exercise effectively useless =p....
Basically today, i am just helping out my dad at his stall and now i am dreading going back to ns =(.... Hopefully someone isn't bored out with her china buddy yet =p.... Okok gtg and practise piano like an Emo kia! Cya all next time =)...

Sunday Post!

2009-01-11T14:25:00.002+08:00

After 2 short but highly eventful days, i am going to book in today again =(.... NS as usual is not very enticing and I recently finished my shooting lessons this week. From the results, It can be proven that i am a damn lousy shooter =p... There goes my marksmanship... zzz.... Next week shan't be very fun either, especially in my impending failure for ippt on wednesday... ekkks...
Saturday was the day when i did something that i had never done in life before which failed quite utterly... I did fell in to self-doubt of myself, at the same time, plunge into some kind of emptiness in the initial moments... However, while sitting on the esplanade rooftop, i thought through my stupidity and self-recklessness, what i really wanted in life and what i yearn for the things i cherish and like. All these finally lift myself out of the gloom that enroached me for the day. I came into a conclusion over the true definitions of "like" and simply prayed for true simple happiness for them. After that, though i have slight relapses of sadness, i am basically fine now =)....
For now, i am just worrying about my uniform inspection tmr and my uncomplete police hw!!!!! ARGHHHH.... I wanna swim swim swim and run run run!!!! =))

2009-01-10T23:58:00.002+08:00

Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that

You made room for me, but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving
I'mma need a better reason to write you a love song today
Today

I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
My heavy heart sinks deep down under you
And your twisted words, your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this
If you're on your way,
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving
I'mma need a better reason to write you a love song today

Promise me you'll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
'Cause I believe there's a way you can love me because I say

I won't write you a love song
'Cause you asked for it
'Cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this
Is that why you wanted a love song
'Cause you asked for it?
'Cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'Cause you tell me it's make or breaking this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it
I don't want it for a minute
Babe, I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that there's a reason to
Write you a love song today
Today

Post: Just feeling tired and rather stupid on Saturday... However, whatever it is, it is always good to make someone's day! I just pray with all my heart that You will be happy and joyful always in life... =)...

Quizzes!!

2009-01-03T22:44:00.002+08:00

Quiz from Zuxin

#1 The first person who tag in your blog is?
Ms Li Zuxin (AKA Miss High)

#2 Your relationship with him/her?
BFF =) [A darn good friend who likes to Bitch For Fun (BFF) with me =p]

#3 Your impression of him/her?
An extremely high girl at times especially when she is out with good friends... She is a cool, highly straight-forward and logical lady who has a set of unique thoughts which makes her very individualistic, standing out from the mainstream crowd who tend to be politically right... In all, she is highly impressionable in my life... =)

#4 The most memorable thing he/she had done for u?
Just being beside me at times to talk to me when i needed it =).. <3 the long talking sessions when we try to hold our bladders for 3 hours or longer LOL...

#5 The most memorable thing he/she said to you?
That the china trip people may not meet up in Singapore after the trip in Chengdu and Beijing!
In contrary, we actually met up much more than we ever expected =p.... Good Heavens that we took the initiative to talk to each other and finally meetin up =p... Another memorable thing she told me happened around june-july 2008, but i shan't mention it here =)...

#6 If he/she become your lover you will
the luckiest dude in the world...! She is really one of the kind around the world and her character appeals to me greatly!! Too bad, i am a step too late =(... Rawr (as quoted from her)..! Haha OMG (imagine it in a bimbo style), did i just say that!?

#7 If he/she become you lover, thing he/she has to improve will be
nothing. Cos i like her for the way she is =))..

#8 If he/she become your enemy, you will?
Run to the furthest corners of the universe, pluck the freshest stars available and revive our friendship like previously... =) [Ok this is crap =p, i will just prevent and eradicate all factors from being her enemy.. =)]

#9 If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
Unsure...? Maybe my uncool character i guess

#10 The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Make her the happiest girl alive =)

#11 Your overall impression of him/her is?
A great friend!! =)

#12 How you think people around you feel about you
Cold, Unreactive, blabber-mouth, overly proud, blur sotong... Do i have to say the rest? Thus this is depressing lol...

#13 The characteristics that you love about yourself are
no idea... maybe things that people like about me? Caring? haha i dont really know (a reflection of low self esteem =p)

#14 On the the contrary, what you hate about yourself?
Cold, Unreactive, blabber-mouth, overly proud, blur sotong... Been trying hard to rid them off my system =)...

#15 The most ideal person you want to be is?
No one is ideal, we can only make changes to accomodate and live in the society

#16 For people that care and like you, say smth to them?
I love you all so much!!! xoxo!! (darn... does this sound girlish?)

#17 Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you. Pass to people with blogs only.
1. Grace kee
2. Phoebe tan
3. Zuxin (again again!!! just skip from qn 17 onwards!)
4. Paolo
5. Rishi
6. Astrid
7. Aaron chan
8. Clarissa kang
9. Elaine cheong
10. Hei mun

#18 Who is no.6 having relationship with?
MAX!!!

#19 Is no.9 a male or female?
Female

#20 If 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
OMG no...!! Heavens will collapse or something...

#21 What is no. 2 studying about?
Him =)

#22 When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
SMSed her just now that i couldn't run cos i am sick... Darnz...

#23 What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
No idea... Should be conventional rock or hillsongs

#24 Does no. 1 has any siblings?
Nope, only child

#25 Will you woo no. 3?
I will if i get the chance! LOL =p...

#26 How abt no. 7?
Thats gay...

#27 Is no. 4 single?
Taken i think LOL...

#28 Whats the surname of no. 5?
Rajendra or Naidu.... Indians...

#29 Whats the hobby of no. 10?
KOREAN DRAMAS x 2000000000000000000000

#30 Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?
I doubt they will, seriously lol...

#31 Where is no. 2 studying at?
Just graduated from CJC, going on to a UNI

#32 Talk something casually about no. 1
EMO KIA!! Stay happy!!! =)!

#33 Have you tried developing feelings for no. 6?
Nope.... Are u mad!? Max will kill me (more like rape actually)!!

#34 Where does no. 9 lives?
Near my home, close back to mount Faber... So close to SAFRA...

#35 What colour does no. 4 like?
BLACK!

#36 Are no. 5 and 1 best friends?
To me yes! In between them... I dunno LOL...

#37 Does no. 1 have any pets?
NOPE

#38 Is no. 7 th sexiest person in the world?
Not gay.... lol...

#39 What is no. 6 doing now?
Talking to her maxy!!!

=end=

Ps: feeling quite sick now... >.<.... Get well soon for me =p

Happy New Year! =)

2009-01-01T15:54:00.002+08:00

Happy new year ppl!!! Its like 5 -6 months since i last blogged and many crazy stuff had happened since.... Prelims, A levels, Hongkong - Taiwan Trip, Prom Night and NS!!! I am currently slightly more mature, fitter and BALD!!! I miss my hair =(....

Perhaps the most significant thing that happened was NS, when my comfortable life was thrown off balance, into the dreaded HTA.... Coming under the strict (sometimes sadistic) field instructors... etc.... I think all these changed my perspective of life, making me cherish the luxuries in life that lacked in camp... Also, it strengthed my mental and physical fitness that i sadly lost during my A level exam when i gained 8 kg... Interestingly, this period of time also helped me know more friends, at the same time, sharpen my thoughts and ambitions, rearranging the priorities within my life... Now i put my family on top followed by my career and music... However, camp life in all still isn't as fun as you think it is... It can be dry and boring at times, tiring our bodies and souls by the end of the day of harsh training... Something to be glad about is that i am not in tekong =p... So good luck to those who are going for BMT next week! LOL....

Meanwhile, my new year wishes are as followed, 1) A fitter body (IPPT PASS or SILVER will be more that sufficient) 2) GOOD or REASONABLE A level results 3) A good police posting (NPCO NPCO!!!) 4)More friendships!!! 5)Secret =p...

Okok gotta pack my stuff for book in later =(.... Cya soon!!

Just seeing you always made me breathless...
Cutting off my true words of adoration for you...
Leaving me speechless and powerless in your gaze...
When I just want to say...

LONGGGG TIMEEEEEEEEE....

2008-07-28T22:06:00.008+08:00

Haha yea.... Within 3 short months since i last posted, many things had happened which will be forever etched in memory for life i guess... Brisbane trip, Mid-year exams, Racial Harmony, Floorball champions and stuff... Perhaps it is most memorable times in school since my primary school days in primary 5 and 6 when i truly had fun in school... =)

Well lets start with Brisbane trip... I guess it was the only time whereby the band especially the percussion bonded as one... We learnt more about each other and break down almost all barriers of communications to truly talk to each other like brothers and sisters... Haha, i think through this trip, the day when i wore hot pink was perhaps the most memorable when almost everyone looked at me with those eyes filled with extreme disbelief... Is it that wrong for guys to wear hot pink shirts? or even like hot pink in the place.... Tsk.... But i guess if u are reading this now, u probably think i am gay or something =p....

My 2 Best Friends! (And pink shirt!!!!)

Section and Sir photo!

Lets move on to Midyears.... Well not bad results considering i have 2 weeks to overcome it =D...
Next on... Racial Harmony day! Woah... This was perhaps the day i ever saw the class so unified and strong in their goals, wearing all the ethnic costumes they could get their hands on... Haha, honestly this is the day i been waiting for so long to see, when the class come together to do something in common... Yea, last year perhaps i was too harsh on them and stuff, thinking of it made me feel so childish and stuff... But this year was a watershed with the class slowly but surely is starting to bond together as one with external influence and stuff... I will continue to pray for the class to ultimately achieve our individual goals and move on ahead.... May we continue to keep in contact over time even after we leave our JC and stuff =)...

2t09!

I think the final thing i gonna say is the floorball inter-class.... Lol... I played for the first and last matches for the entire competition.... I guess i was quite disappointed for conceding that one goal which ended our winning streak in the last match, but we still won! Finally!!! Haha we can now wear that class tshirt with glory and pride to be real champions!

2t09 Floorball team (comes with Coach (Jiffsen) and Assistant Coach (Ziyi))

Haha thats pretty much that had happened... Hope you all will be statisfied!

After-effects

2008-05-11T22:13:00.004+08:00

Woah, it is a couple of weeks, since i last updated... Oh yea, as of the mad week ahead post, T3/T9 did very well for history night ending up 2nd, not bad for a class who did not do so well for the past few history exams =)... Also, T9 did reasonably well for sports carnival too though we did not achieve any top placings, but it was a remarkable comeback from last year's disappointing results =D....

Now the highlight of that week =).... Con Fuoco VI!!! Well it turned out much better than expected especially for the alumni performance and the percussion ensemble =).... Here are some photos from the concert =D!

Me while in play

Percussion Section 2008 =)

My Best Friends in School! Phoebe and Grace =D

I guess without Grace and Phoebe in band and school, i guess i may not hold up so long and continue till what i am today! Big thanks to you two! Hope we can be good friends in a long long time!!!

Now the band is preparing for Australia's Southern Cross competition, and it seems that we have to play Marching Season (a very very tough percussion piece) and a xylophone solo piece. Omg... Yea, i gotta admit that it was my dream to play a xylophone solo piece with the band... Hope it will turn out fine!!!! =) And may i be blessed to do well for my upcoming exams!

PS: Hope everyone will do well too!!

Mad Week Ahead..

2008-04-27T22:57:00.002+08:00

I guess my life is going right down..... Crazy homework load and band stuff.. Going back home almost 7 each day... I am really close to suffocating and my hair turning real white... >.<.... Well i had been overwhelmed by preparation work for activities next week, history night and concert.... To the extent that even after band practise, my heart still beat as furiously as the songs i played.... I was so close to losing my cool yesterday after hours of ensemble and band practice.... Perhaps, i should start trying to relax and relief the stress on me, if not i guess i may break down anytime next week, or even go into the extent that i may hit someone >.<..... Luckily i had to go early from band yesterday to celebrate my friend's birthday, if not within any second i would have just turn violent i guess...
Well i really hope that next week will turn out fine with the effort everyone had put in and reaping our fruits that we painstakingly sowed. =) Cool down Joey!!! You can do it!!!!

PS: Happy Birthday to Zuxin!
PPS: You owe me a meal!!!!
PPPS:Time to save money $$!
PPPPS: And Study Hard!!

13th April

2008-04-13T21:40:00.002+08:00

Woah close to 2 weeks since i last posted..... however not really much happened.... Well the past 2 weeks were just study and band.... And the process just repeats itself every week, stripping almost all the time i have to myself rendering Sunday my only rest day..... I am quite emotionally tired already and hoping all these will end soon >.<...... I will be so happy when this month is over then i can really relax before the mad rush for mid-years 0.O..... ARGH!... OH YEA! My hair cut was relatively bad too >.<..... Got suanned by people in school! Tsk..... Not gonna love my new image too much!

Anyway, i got my new piano already!!!!! A Wilhem Steinberg IQ 28!!!! Oh man.... it is like a long 13 year wait and finally i changed from my Yahama piano to this really great German piano! The sound is really rich with warmth and the dynamic range is really huge!!!! Man.. It really sparked of my renewed interest piano, and i never knew practising piano could be so fun! The investment in this piano is really all worth it! Haha hope it will guide me all the way to the completion of my piano diplomas =DDDD!

PS: Good Luck to Zuxin for her exams!! You will do well! Jiayou and push on!!!!

Sunday Times...

2008-03-30T21:31:00.002+08:00

Time passes really quickly now.... In a flash, it is already end of my short horrendous weekends, barely even having any time to do anything entertaining..... Just mugging and more mugging for my up-coming tests.... Yucks.....
This week was rather crappy though.... Madness fitness training in school which nearly tore my muscles apart and making me vomit what is left inside of me.... Scolding sessions for history and gp lessons.... And an extra band practice on friday for the next 4 weeks or so.... not including future practises for history night.... omg.... April is gonna be hell month man..... Especially on the last week of it when i have to prepare for history night, sports carnival and band concert..... x.x..... Oh yea, also noticed blood flow from my operation wounds, may not be a good sign for recovery.... Gotta see the doctor....
Yesterday's band practice wasn't too easy to take in too.... No matter how sir puts it, but i think it is too true to ignore..... Many things have to be done... Bleh..... What a timely wake-up call 0.O....
On a lighter note, i think there is this chinese show competition on channel 8, 8 pm tmr.. Heard Bo Chao and Mabelyn had taken part in it.... Will be interesting to watch your friends on TV =p....

Happy happy! =)

2008-03-21T21:52:00.003+08:00

Woah..... After a gruesome week of a long tedious wait..... I finally got back my results.... Well looking at it, it seemed to be quite ok ! This week was almost full of quite demoralising talks from almost every subject especially history, but thank God, i managed to pull off my one week study feat and tide through it quite smoothly... However i am still disappointed with my math results, dropping by 3 grades sucks badly.... Well.... I will just have to work harder by attempting more papers and do well for it! Beat the Calculus! =D!!!!! I will just have to remember, i am not only competing within the school, but also every single A level student in the planet, man.... Just added on the stress for myself =p...

On the other hand, after a tiring week of receiving results, the Easter holidays are here! Went out today with the China group of ppl! Man.... Miss them tonnes! Haha had such a enjoyable time communicating and playing along with these people, who some, i hadn't seen in 4 months! They can make even the walk along Orchard road seem so much fun! Oh yea, i also played Dance Dance Revolution with Zuxin, omg.... DDR as in the real dancing thingy using your real legs not the ones you use your fingers to press on ur PSP!.... It was alot fun despite sweating like a pig at the end of it and perhaps throwing my face away after so =p... (I am sure some of u all will be like.... oh ma gawh (bimbotically).... JOEY DANCED!? I want a video of it!!!!!!) lol.... It was a good experience honestly, and thinking back, i want to try it again someday! Hopefully by then i am fitter =p... Oh yea then we also went to her house to play her available musical instruments! Hanlin is really great on the piano technically! Haha makes me want to practise more than the 2 hours i put in a week =p.... but first.. i want a new piano! Zuxin's piano sounds so much better than mine.... man.... =p... Our initial plan of playing poker cards were soon replaced by our constant pounding of the piano for 2 hours! Haha, but no matter what it was so fun! Maybe next time Bochao can bring her violin and we can form a piano-pipa-violin-Guitar ensemble =p... In conclusion, it is really a great day! Wish i can meet this bunch of guys soon! =D

PS: There is band tmr at AJC.. Heheheh.... Aaron lim have to watch out man.....

My LATE Birthday

2008-03-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

Omg.... Rmb the previous post? The day after that, my section celebrated it for me, about 8 days late.... Actually i knew they wanted to celebrate it all long, just that i didn't expect to go to that extent.....
First, when i went to meet them, they took me on a hide and seek trail around Orchard cos they had yet to hide the cake.... Second, after the meal, the manager of Fish and co., told me to get up and go to the front.... i was 0.O.... I was like expecting the cake to be delivered to the table.... He told me to stand up on this tall chair holding the cake.... And he announced it to the whole restaurant.... O.O.... So embarrassing.... And that becos of the adrenaline rush to my brain, i was like unable to blow out the candles at all >.<.... Lost so much of my face in a day.... bleh.... Haha, and the cake was like so hard, the plastic knife nearly broke.... Man what a day... My section got me a pink and white strips long sleeve shirt..... And i have to wear it someday lol....
Wah anyway.... This week is relatively full with history night rehearsals and band practices.... Not to forget, HW too... Stressed.... Even someone called me a mugger and a crazy man over it =p.... Lol.... Must relax argh.... Only holidays left before the mad rush to the exams and receiving my crappy results.... ARGH.... Die..

March Holidays!!!!

2008-02-16T22:36:00.002+08:00

Haha.... Wah it is at least a long long month since i last posted around here.... And yea many bad and good things happened to me since then 0.O.....
Lets start with the most painful incident.... It happened on a lonely Valentine's Day night..... Nono.... not what u think..... I didn't got dumped by some girl!.... but....it was my appendix which finally got fed up with me eating so much for the past 18 years, that it go inflammed causing me so much pain..... Haha.... The pain was like there for 3 days, but since my family was so caught up with my Dad's roaring business, my mum told me to take panadol and the pain will go away... However, it got so painful, then i had to visit my GP.... At least i thought it was some stomach pain, but it turned out to be appendicitis.... Gave me a shock man.... After 4 hours worth of waiting at Alexandra Hospital and Geneagles Hospital to confirm that i had appendicitis, it finally got removed from my body at 1am on 15th Feb... Then the most painful part came.... Moving was a torture and i was on a liquid diet for the whole day 0.O.... but.... I was glad that so many people visited me including my band friends and relatives =D!... Yea, after discharge, i am finally back to school..
Haha then next came my birthday! Received many well wishes and presents from my family and friends! Thank you all! =DDD... Oh yea, i too received some interesting Birthday Cards which were quite hilarious... for example this one...

"Happy Birthday! Although I felt that it is a waste to give you any presents at all, but since I buy presents in bulk last year, might as well give you this. I think this present will suit you quite nicely since you are so ZHI LIAN, might as well put it in front of your desk with your photo on it.
And this

"Though I still dislike you now and then...." Yea you can imagine the rest..

Lol.... Really love my friends and Anti Joey Club fans alot.. Tsk.. Thanks for the memorable Birthday "Bash"!..... Oh yea.... common tests were crap and crazily hard..... Haiz.... Time to work harder! For As! =D..... Okok thats all for the updates!

PS: So sad you closed your blog, but stay strong and be happy! For you are special! I am sure this trial will pass over soon! =) Smile!

我也喜欢你

2008-02-08T10:49:00.000+08:00

我也喜欢你
作者：沃伯格著，瓦斯特图
美籍俄国人

我也喜欢你而且我也知道为什么
我也喜欢你因为你也是一个好人逗人喜欢
我也喜欢你因为当我告诉你一件特别的事你也知道它是特别的
而且你也会记得很久很久
你也说记得吗？你以前也告诉过我那件特别的事这样我们两个也都就记得
当我认为某一件事重要你也会认为它重要
我们有很棒的想法当我说好笑的话你就笑我觉得自己好笑你也觉得我是好笑的
我也喜欢你因为你知道我哪里怕痒你不会来搔我那里
但是有时候你会来搔那么一下下
不过如果你来搔我我也知道要搔你哪里
你很会装傻所以我喜欢你
真的你真是傻瓜一个遇见你以前我没有碰过比我更笨更傻的人
我也喜欢你因为你知道适可而止不再装傻可能是后天可能永不停止
哇太迟了已经傻过头了
我们总是在一起鬼混有时候我们默不作声在篱笆下挤来挤去偷看秘密的地方
如果我在屋顶上发疯大叫大闹你也会和我一样
如果我假装快要淹死了你就会假装来救我
如果我准备要拍打纸袋那你就会预备好要被吓一跳
那是因为你真的喜欢我你真的喜欢我对不对那我也真的喜欢你
你也喜欢我我也喜欢你每天不停的我们就这样喜欢来喜欢去
如果你出去旅行那么我也出去旅行要是我留在家你就会寄张卡片给我
你不会只是说再见啦有空在联络
就因为这样我也很喜欢你
如果我去旅行我也会寄卡片给你
如果我们一起去旅行如果我们在中央车站如果我们失散了你就会大声呼叫我
我也喜欢你因为当我觉得悲伤时你不会老是要让我立刻高兴起来有时候难过
比较好
要是有人每一分钟都不停的吱吱喳喳你一定受不了你要想事情那需要时间
我也喜欢你因为如果我生你的气你也生我的气要是你生别人的气
别人根本不在乎那实在太难受了
有些人太好了呵呵好得让你想要揍他一拳打在他鼻子上
我也喜欢你因为如果我要吐了你会觉得很难过
你不会只是假装忙着东张西望看鸟啊什么的
你会说恐怕是吃错了什么东西吧你会说我也吃错过东西而且也是这样
如果你找到两棵幸运草你会给我一棵如果我找到四棵幸运草我会给你两棵
如果我们只找到三棵我们就继续找下去有时我们运气好有时我们不那么好运
我也喜欢你因为我也不知道为什么
但是不管发生什么事只要有你在总是比较好
我记不起来有什么时候我不喜欢你如果有那一定寂寞死了
我也喜欢你因为因为因为我忘了我为什么喜欢你
但是我是喜欢你的理由可多了
七月四日我喜欢你因为那是七月四日
七月五日　我也喜欢你
即使是七月的第九百九十九日
即使是八月即使是十一月底底底即使是一月的随便哪一天
我还是会选择你而且你也会选择我
再选再选还是都一样每一次都是这样
我不知道为什么真的我想我不知道我为什么喜欢你为什么我喜欢你
我想我就是喜欢你我想我就是喜欢你

Haha touching piece of work robbed from my friend's blog! Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year everyone~! May all of your dreams come true in this special year =))))!

Oh yea a update of my life, homework, tests and band... Well my life quite revolves around all of these things, quite simple and boring >.<.... However, with the introduction of a new football in class, i think it livens up things alot! The guys in class are really crazy about soccer and we play it whenever (also wherever)there is time to spare, further fuelled by the Man U and Arsenal rivalry in class! (quite loopsided, with like 7 man u fans to 1 arsenal fan in class, the rest are neutral like me =p..)... Haha interesting bunch of guys in class now! Hope things will improve for the best soon =D! Oh yea, to end off with a sad note, common tests are coming >.<.... Time to start mugging >.<.... Yucks.... The truth =p... Is tmr~!

Start of School 0.O!!!!

2008-01-17T21:12:00.000+08:00

A blink of the eye, 17 days have passed under my nose so quickly!!!! Thats like half a month!!!! And it is 17 days nearer to my A level examinations >.<...... After the previous post, school had started on 2nd Jan... And the start of my crazy nightmares 0.o.... Lectures after lectures, tutorials after tutorials, teachers kept repeating the proximity of the A level examinations, i think it quite scared alot of people of their wits and some really got down to work.... Only 2 weeks into school, work is piling in fast, there was like 2-3 history tutorials, 1 full maths tutorial, 1 full economics essay/case study and stacks of lecture notes to read.... That took up like my entire week up with every single tutorial to completed each night (Sat and Wed night is for CCA and Piano) and i have barely time to breathe, rest or socialise.... Somemore, with the crazy toturous mass pe, i think it just further depletes my energy each day >.<...... Haiz..... Gotta get a life =p.... OH yea, band was quite bleak too with the urgent need of a drumset player and a competent J1.. Further added with the prospect of playing ultra-boring songs..... Bleh.... Don't really love the drumset alot, but well, gotta learn it for the sake of playing better songs.... Well, as they say to be a good percussionist, u have to be good at every single percussion instrument.... so time to learn >.<.....
On the bright side, we only have 2 mass pe left and i think i found a great potential.... Also, i passed grade 8 exams!!!! Woohoo!!!!! Finally to move on to a high stage with cooler songs in need a higher technique..... Haha i think it is the first time i play Beethoven pieces since grade 1/2.... I am learning this really great song, called the Pathetique and it consist of 3 movements! I am learning the fist movement =D.... And it is cool!!!!

This is the first movement by Freddy Kempf! Very very talented pianist in playing Beethoven, haha don't expect me to play like him.... =p.... Impossible!

Days feels like years without you... You are the one who i think about when i play Pathétique....

The last day of 2007

2007-12-31T20:25:00.000+08:00

Finally, the year is coming to an end.... Yup, this year was an eventful year for me..

My first year in a junior college which is a mixed school where i was transformed from a shy, easily blush boy into a mature and slightly more confident man.... My shocking O Level results which looks impressive on paper with the number of As on it, but in fact, the number of points from it is very disappointing.... My very energetic first 3 month friends (IG3 and 1T07), slightly calmer 1T09 classmates, fun-loving section-mates and great band friends who went through hell together.... Gold achieved from SYF.... Concerts: Con Fuoco, Renaissance, Presentation night and Christmas concert =)).... Loss of my last loved grandparent to cancer..... Much better examination results and shocking history placing =p... Blood Donations..... Pri 6 class meeting for the first time in 5 years!!!..... China trip and the great friends who came with it!..... Rich experiences from the Taiwan-Hongkong Trip...

Yup, it summarises all that i went through this year, some good, some bad..... Good year of achievements for me but not too good year of relationships where i lost my beloved grandmother, some friends.... However, as they say, lose some gain some, I gained many friends too =)!

Oh yea, this week wasn't very eventful... Mostly, i was at home trying to finish my crazy load of homework (especially history.... The teachers are way too scheming to give so much homework!... Trying to ruin our holidays... Tsk....) or watching movies and trying to personalise my laptop.. But.... Yesterday was good...!

In the late morning, I went to Christina's housewarming at Kovan... Her house was located within the Kovan Medley condos.... Omg..... It was like 10 steps away from the MRT and it was beautiful... My dream house~!!! Christina's dog, Pumpkin (female, 3 months old) was really cute and fun to play with.... however, it was like a saliva and biting machine... Poor marc who got bitten by it for a number of times... and it was really great to the girls.... It never bited any of the girls.... Bleh.... not fair =p.... Also , we opened up Christina's PS3!!!! Omg... The starting screen and graphics was absolutely stunning and unbelievable!... And we played Need For Speed : Carbon on it.... Woah man.... It was fun but i lost all the time >.<.... Not too great with cars....Tsk.... Haha yea, when i told them i had to leave early to go home and get prepared for a Chinese Orchestra concert at Esplanade, they were like shocked... I guess it is taboo for band people to watch CO concerts lol.... but well, isn't it good to be exposed to all forms of music ?(though i don't highly recommend indian classical music.... up till now, i don't understand whether they are playing music or just tuning....) =D....

Oh yea, then I returned home after the outing to get prepared for the concert... Rummaged through my wardrobe for clothes to wear since Zuxin was going to wear her dress (needed to wear more decently if not i throw her face =p...), haha even my mum was shocked with the choice of my clothes..! Then after that i left house to reach cityhall on time.... When i walked out of the mrt barriers, and looked around, i didn't managed to find her so i contacted her... Woah, at that moment i saw her, she was really stunning... Perhaps it was the attire (black-white lined dress with a black jacket over it with brown lined shoes) she wore coupled with her contact lens, rarely see girls wear dresses now i guess... thats why... Oh yea then we went to raffles city to eat dinner, haha yea, she had a choice whether to eat Burger King or MosBurger. She wanted to eat a Burger King cos it was cheaper, haha when i said i wanna pay, she changed to MosBurger.... Tsk.... She really knows how to exploit a guy.. =p... Haha but nevermind la... It is ok... Then after that we walked to Esplanade to watch the concert but it was too early, so we explored its library( which has actually nothing excepts scores and videos.... not really worth visiting for unless you are like a NAFA student or something) and its free performances.... Then we walked in for the concert... Wah... Was a disappointment... Expected to sit on the second or third floor (circle seats), but we got the lower floors and it was near to the orchestra where we can hear its intonation... Gave me a bad earache with the bad tuning but it was better as the concert proceeds... Haha then after the first song, Zuxin needed to go to the toliet, so i went out with her.... then the Ushers told us that we needed to wait for 18 MINS for the next time to get into the hall.... 0_O... Thus we went out to watch the free performance (which i secretly thought that it was better than the CO.... >.<...)... After the long wait, we went back inside and the concert proceeds on.... Relatively boring... but the Liu Qin and Ban Hu solo was good =D!....My sister looked like she was bored out of her wits after the concert =p... After that, the night ended when we brought her back to the mrt =)... Generally it was a good day for me i guess =D!

Okok, gonna go watch my wang jing lu =p.. Hope you guys have a great 2008!!!!

Ps: 蕭敬騰 is the best singer i ever heard.... Watch this video!

Merry Christmas to All!!!

2007-12-25T21:53:00.000+08:00

Finally, after a long month, i found the time to blog~! Yup, the past few weeks were really chaotic for me, trips overseas and crazy band practices which last 10-11 hours a day! Despite missing those times when i had alot of fun, but i am really glad that all is over and i can get down to work, exercise my mind and start preparing the harsh year ahead of me.

Well, let me start off with my trip to hong kong (3rd visit there) and taiwan (a first =p)! It was a really memorable and fun (expensive =p) trip for our family! Despite it being planned on 2 weeks before our actual flight, we managed to get everything together in time and flew off! We basically only did 3 things there, SHOPPING, EATING and SLEEPING and it repeated its cycle everyday and by the time we came back, we had 5 suitcases (as compared to the 3 we left Singapore with) full of things for ourselves and gifts for others! During the whole time, we really enjoy each other's company and strengthen our bonds as a family, and i did not regret coming for this trip =)! By the way, by then, i was really sick of sitting on an airplane, trying sitting for 7 times in 2 weeks, u will find it a bore..... Oh yea, my best soveniur i got from there was a beijing olympics adidas jacket! It is really cool and much cheaper than adidas jackets in singapore!!

Ok then i came back and started off the last week of band practices before the concert, it was really tough, me being so far back from the others, had only one week to practice my difficult parts and get it all right for concert. But..... After one week (about 40 hours of practice), i managed to get all of my part decently right and the concert was a blast! Didn't played to much wrong rhythms and notes, thus it went really well for me =D! Thank you friends who have came =)!

Oh yea, before so i also went for an outing with the China trip people ;D! but.... i am too lazy to type it out so i decided to make use of one of their blog entries =p.... (since she likes copying others entries too and i am lazy, must as well =p... no copyright issues right? lol.)

14 dec

went out with bochao hanlin joey!!! (((((((((( : YAYS! hahahahahahah. so funny! hmm okays, so we went to east coast park to cycle! it was such a hot day! hahaha! and then we arranged to meet at bedok mrt. and then when i reached there, i couldnt find them! hanlin and bochao had told me thru sms that they alr arrived! so i was trying to scan for them..*giggle giggle*that's wad i heard! omg, -.- they were behind me all along! how blur can i get! LOLS. yupps!! then went to macs for lunch, then joey came along.. o.0 we clean forgot to take grp pic! )))) : hmmms... then east coast.. cycled for 2 hours! okay not rly 2 full hours. cos like towards the end we went into bk to enjoy aircon! LOLS. butt pain, la. -.- neahs!! and i cycled the slowest!

The cycling was really fun! And yea i miss those guys alot, hope to meet them soon, at 12th Jan i guess when we are all settled in our school! Can't wait to see them! Anyway, I need a break now, so Happy n Merry Christmas everyone! =D! Oh yea, found this frisbee video in christina shared folder and it is perhaps one of my rare caught-on-tape video which was taken roughly before i went for the china trip! So Enjoy!

Tuesday Post

2007-12-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

Well, alot of things happened since the previous time i blogged, well, must as well update now =p.... I have been writing a reflection of my trip to China in chinese for 3 hours today so i am gonna use it for my blog entry today =p....

<< 中国之旅 2007 >>

没想到自从两个月考完了 “A” 水准华语考试后我再会提笔写上多一编文章, 写上这次到中国两大城市成都和北京的体验和感想. 虽然这次不是我初次到中国旅游, 但是, 这一次, 我不但学习了丰富的新知识, 也在我短短生命中留下了最难忘, 最深刻的记忆.

因为母亲有些事而不能和大伙们一起同行到成都, 所以只能一天后才能搭上胜安航空飞机, 到达我们的目的地. 飞机到达成都后, 看一看了周围的建筑物和想象的完全相反, 使我大吃了一惊呀! 本以为成都是一个凄惨落后的城市的我, 犯下了很严重的错误! 从机场坐着计程车前往饭店的旅程中, 我看到了路旁建立了壮观的高楼大厦, 和被称为中国未来城市的上海不相上下. 后来在成都的那段日子, 使我认识了很多在新加坡商业领域的精英和华语语文和口才方面很杰出的中学学生, 是我最大的荣幸陪伴着他们一起在中国互相学习. 在成都的大熊猫繁育研究基地, 游乐场, 太平洋商场和武侯祠, 我和那些灵巧的中学学生度过了许多的快乐的时光, 渐渐的更彻底的了解他们的个性和嗜好, 也喜欢上了他们的友伴. 他们的友伴允许我再一次经历我上高中后, 所失去在中学时度过的无忧无虑的日子.

不久, 我们就需要离开成都, 前往我最终的目的地, 中华人民共和国的首都, 北京. 坐了两个多小时崎岖不平的航程, 我们终于到了那儿. 北京今日不如往日, 为了准备及将要来临的奥运会而变得更富有更发达了, 虽然如此, 中国政府还是保留着历史建筑物, 把它们和现代的建筑物融合在一起.

在北京, 我们就参观了赞助我们到中国考察的组织, 孔子学院总部 ( 汉办 ), 使我们更解了汉语水平考试 ( HSK ) 的来源和目标, 参观后, 我们就参加了他们举办的宴会, 品尝到了中国的美味佳肴. 没了他们的存在 ,汉语就无法传播到世界各地, 也无法把华人的文化和中国所拥有五千年以来的历史发扬光大. 那次的参观也引起了我对于汉语水平考试的兴趣, 可能明年我会去考一考见识一下.

在北京下来的日子, 我们也参观了中国最著名的大学, 北京大学, 了解他们如何研发商务汉语考试 ( BCT )和目标, 还有在北京著名的商场如秀水街和王府井购物和景点如故宫和天安门广场参观拍照. 在最后的一晚, 我们就再一次的聚在一起, 唱一唱市上的流行歌曲, 想把这一程的中国之旅画上美丽的句点.

但任何人也没想到在飞往新加坡的新航客机突然坏了,使我们在中国多住了上一个夜晚, 明日才能回家乡, 拖延了我回到残酷和忙碌的现实生活. 这一次的中国之旅使我经历了很多缤纷色彩的大小件事也允许我认识了一群非常好的朋友, 是我一生当中最难忘的旅程. 不但如此, 这个旅程也然我和亲爱的母亲有了更多接触和互相了解的时间, 加强了我们母子之间的爱. 到了这儿我就此卸笔.

陈扬义
十二月四日二零零七年

Hope my chinese not that bad =p...

Holidays? Study Break?

2007-10-30T20:17:00.000+08:00

Finally, the long-awaited holidays are finally here =p... Tsk... Was looking forward to it since the preparation period of promos, finally it is here... However... Now I am feeling quite useless slacking around at home... Perhaps, this is a side-effect from being a mugger =p... I think i better start some of homework soon such as those needing research like GP and History >.<... Speaking of history... where is my history outing!? =p.. Oh yeah... Finally got back my finalised promo results too, better than expected, though my economics still saddens me... but never mind, i still have next year to do well =p...
Yesterday, i had chinese A levels too... Isn't too bad, guess i will do well and maybe better than promos since promos are much harder than that... tsk... Hope my result streak for chinese will not just end there =D... I think i gonna miss chinese after so... It always been my favourite subject since secondary school since it always have been the slackest and the only subject i can score well in... Haha, regret my decision for not taking H2 chinese? =p... Hope someday i can come back into contact with chinese... Maybe working in china? lol...
Found a friend who is also interested in classical intrumental music like me... Her name is.... Phoebe Tan!!!! Tsktsk... Finally someone who is as boring as me... but well hope we share music and ideas together as times pass... and wish you luck in your examinations for this holidays... Even when we become relatives LOL.... =pppp....
Anyway, today's is the birthday of a good friend, Grace =p... So...
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY GRACE!!!!
May God bless you in everything you do and bless that your life will continue to improve =D.... Also, hope that you will lead the section to greatness next year =D....

The curtain is coming to a close... soon...

Wednesday Post..

2007-10-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

Woah.... It is about half a month since i last post and tons of things happened after that.... Well, my CSE paper went ok and after that i been going out alot with my friends (too bored staying at home and stoning).....
So, for the previous 2 weeks, there was quite alot of tension within the school as we await for promo results... Throughout those 2 weeks, i was doubting whether i could do ok for promos and was expecting a fall from my mid year results.... However, when the results came back, the results proved to be rather shocking.. For my most confident paper, Economics, i did quite badly, however, my least confident paper, Maths, i did well!... After the assurance of a pass from the GP paper yesterday, i am sure i can promote quite safely and i think i hit most of my teacher's expectations (other than Economics... Heheh.... Stupid case study...)... So i am happy about it... =D.... Furthermore, adding to my happiness, I am going to China (Sichuan and Beijing) with my mum to learn about China's economy.... I love the cold weather there =p... And the steam and fried dumplings - mouthwatering......mmmm....
Before harming someone, always think of the consequences and causes.... Politics is not the type of game to play now, both sides will suffer badly....
If i say i can let go completely.... I am just cheating myself......

октябрь

2007-09-30T13:10:00.000+08:00

It is about half a month since i last posted and alot of things happened after that. Well, just finished all the H2 examinations this Friday and i think i tried my best already though i think i might be doing worse as compared to mid years. The papers are much harder now, with 2 times the content needed to memorise and a much higher level analytical skills required, i serious doubt i can do that well anymore. Well, as long i promote and do reasonably well, i guess i will be contented. =)... Only left that CSE paper on Thursday then i will be free from exams, hopefully i can push on and do well for that last paper.
Yesterday's outing with Amanda, Yukang, Chu Yuan, Wanyu, Audrey and Peiying was fun. We practically toured around orchard doing weird things, like shopping for my future school bag, arcade, going to suntec for laksa, see the Esplanade building then to Cuppage Centre to play pool. It was different from the outings i been having and it was rather cool, it is quite a good time to waste time and relax at the same time. Well, soon by 6pm, after meeting up with Chu yuan and Peiying in Far East, i got to go back home for my piano tuition.
Well, on the bus trip home, i was thinking of my past year and things that happened during the day. From SJI to CJC was a drastic change for me as a person, long gone is the person who slacks off during lesson, now i am changed to one who focus in class. No longer aiming to just pass, now i am aiming to score and do well for anything i do. Character wise, i am changed quite abit, now instead of being a shy boy, i am more open up to people. And i think i became more mean to girls now as compared to the times when i am in SJI. I am still quite egoistic and nosey as a person but well, one's character is quite hard to change.
Back home after that trip, I was thinking of a song, named October, The Autumn Song, from The Seasons written by Tchaikovsky. It was in ABA form and written after a poem, "Autumn, falling down on our poor orchid, the yellow leaves are flying in the wind." by Aleksei Nikolaevich Tolstoi. I played that song when i was secondary 4 for my mid-years O level music practical exams, it depicts the death of summer and the onset of autumn and a true form of sadness emits from it. The sadness can be derived from the loss of your happiness or the loss of your loved one. When i was secondary 4, at such a immature age with no regard of who you truly loved, it was hard to depict the song, though technically it was easy but expression wise, only one who have experienced what is a loss of a loved one can really pull off this song. Thus, my O level teacher marked me down and told me that i was still young to fully understand Tchaikovsky songs, everything technical can be right but without proper interpretation of the song, no matter how right you play it, i will never pass O levels with it. Indeed, when i heard the interpretation of the song by some guy during the first level of the Tchaikovsky Piano Competition, i fully realised why i can never play the song, the way he plays it shows the terrible loss he had fully endured, so great that it can bring tears to the eyes of the judges. Well, in secondary days, i wanted to love someone however i realise with love, comes a heavy responsibility which i cannot carry during that stage of my life. Now, after years of experience, the meaning of love and sadness becomes more apparent to me, perhaps i should re-experience once more and see whether i can play it again. "Indeed, after a long time, i realise my heart indeed been trapped by a invisible force, losing hope pretty fast, aching so easily... To give up or not, lingers in my mind. " Bleh, Grade 8 Trinity-Guildhall music piano exam is coming soon too.... So much pieces to play >.<....
Hope everyone around me will do well for promos and anything... =D...

Monday....

2007-09-17T19:28:00.000+08:00

One really can never judge the book its cover.... Seriously, one may seem sweet, good natured and quiet at the first glance, but over the time, true colours will just surface, being unreasonable, not thankful for all that others have done and even to the extent of being despicable.

Yea, i might not be that wonderfully good and i admit i do have my down points, at times i can be biggest asshole and idiot ever. However, now, i am trying to help others even going to the extent from waking from my sleep and crawling to the computer to print things for you! But, what i get? A insincere thanks and criticism to my printing! It is your fault in sending me the written report after i printed it and you being unreasonable asking to reprint the WHOLE DAMN THING! I informed you that i am only reprinting 2 pages and you said YES without even thinking! And what bloody happened? You criticised it and took it as a threat to harm you! Hello? I am helping you to achieve a better grade and yet what i get? Acts to discredit me!

Wow, using biblical quotes to support and justify your stand against me, trying to solidify your stand? Yea, i might not know the bible as good as you, but i know it is wrong to use it as a mask to disguise your real intentions and trying to support your stands and views when it is so wrong! Remember, it is you who directly caused all this rubbish and arguments with your petty and unreasonable actions! I don't think God will support such actions of yours!

Coming to religion, you think that all the other religions are not as worthy and as good as yours? Please think carefully before you say such things! We should respect all religions that exist and not deeming them as bad and evil. Even the head of the different religions respect each other's religion and even go to the extent of praying with them, what make you different from them? Your actions is a reflection of what is happening today, Islamic Fundamentalism and if you want to go back in time, the Crusades and Holy wars in England! I might not be a expert in religion, but my exposure to them is nevertheless is enough for me comment on them. I am born into a Buddhism and Taoism family, but i also went to Christian (YWCA Kindergarten) and Catholic schools, and in a period of my life, visit a church for close to 3 years. Everyone i met who practice these religions are the kindest people i ever met in my life and all have strong faiths to their religion yet none criticised the rest of the religions in the world and in SJI, i was taught to appreciate all religions around me. Thus, it is wrong to criticise religions all around the world!

You have failed to appreciate what others have done to you and even turned your back on them. Please think back of your friends have given you ever since you entered the school and don't just look at the things that you think have done an injustice to you! One day, people will your true colours and leave you one by one, and trust me, this time, no one will be with you. If you don't change you stupid stubborn attitude, it will just bring you down someday!

I am disappointed in you, both are your friends, instead of mediating and resolving differences between both ends, you took sides! Please open up your eyes and heart to see who is right and wrong, and do what is right and stop this conflict......

Surprises =D

2007-08-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

Well basically this week was rather busy at the start, but it became much less tedious later.... Starting of the week was tough cos i had to complete all my holiday homework... Too lazy to do it over the holidays =p.... Then came the infamous written report, had to complete that throughout the night on wednesday >.<...... Well, on thursday, i went to faeliq's house with inez, jiffsen and sherman to watch and complete the video montage.... Well, we only started at about 8 + after watching the Con fuoco V dvd and we really got caught up with many computerised problems.... Had to go home at 10 + cos i had a curfew by my parents... but luckily inez and faeliq managed to finished it in time.... Then friday was investiture.... Met up in the band room at 3 pm and played Flight of the Bumblebee on the marimba with Heimun, and had quite abit of fun.... =D.... Then moved down percussion instruments and by 6 pm we had our dry run.... Finally, the thing started at about 7 pm, michelle and I was ushering the guests in until the end of bella's speech... We finished the J2s presentation and etc. then the moment of truth came.... Since we did not what prizes we won or what appointment we will get, there was a feeling of nervousness around me among the J1s... Finally, the moment of truth came, Phoebe won best J1 (she really deserved it, she is one of the best friends you can ever get) and Zengjie won best J2 (i really admire his management of his section and his skill *kowtow*)... And Percussion won BEST SECTION woot!!!!!! YEAH!!!! No words can describe the pride and happiness we felt to have win that award, it really felt good =D..... Then appoint of SLs, Sherman (Flute), Faeliq & Max (Clarinet), Shern Way (Saxophone), Hong Chow (Trumpet), Dominic (Horn), Jiffsen (Trombone), Yong Di (Euphonium), Edwin (Tuba) and Grace (Percussion)... It was really choices well made... I am sure Alvin made all the correct choices of SLs as they are the best we have =D... Especially Grace =D... I am sure from the start she will be the best choice... Dont worry, i will back you up to the best of my ability and perhaps win the best section again =DDDDD.... Then finally the appointment for the committee.... That was really damn scary, nearly got a heart attack from it... Actually after the apppointment of SLs i was really damn sure that i will not get any other appointments already and was thinking of the food later.... Then came the Librarian appointments... I was actually daydreaming... Then the MC said "The Librarians for 2008/9 are Melissa.... and Joey Tan...."... That was freaking scary... I blanked out for like 5 seconds then when i saw melissa stand up, i followed her up....And all my batch mates faces are like blank and shocked like me... My hands were actually shaking when i shook madison hand.... Then the rest of the of the appointments came in QMs (Tara and Phoebe), Lillian (Secretary) ,VPs (Faeliq music, Shern Way admin) and President (Dominic =D).... Those were fantastic choices,and i am sure they will do their respectively jobs well =D.... Go SJI guys =p.... Felt sort of guilty to be in the committee when i am such as slacker in band... but since alvin trust me with this job, i promise to do it to the best of ability i guess =D... Then the percussion section went to marina bay for dinner =).. Quite a new experience eat out so late, though my mum kept calling me and scolding me why i am not bad yet... Lol.... I will not give up, Never....

Sunday...

2007-08-12T22:07:00.001+08:00

What a month stuffed with birthdays... Well this month there are like at least 5 people who i know having their birthdays this month, and first was Jiffsen B-Day which is today... Wow.... I think i gonna spend quite a bit of money on presents this month.... Gonna burn a huge hole in pocket... ouch....

Anyway, this week was rather eventful... Wednesday was class outing, well this time most turn relatively successful =-D... Then after that had a session with Amanda, Chu Yuan, Jiffsen, Wanyu, Hei mun, Ziyi and Pei Ying in macdonalds.... Bleh.... Had to treat them ice cream >.<.... My $4.80 >.<.... but we had quite abit of fun there by playing "truth or dare", they really know how to extract secrets..... Ouch... Well, thursday was ok, went to my uncle's house and practically sleeping the whole day.... On friday, went out for pw meeting in the afternoon... Was suppose to be studying at toa payoh with the band ppl including Rishi, but no choice gotta do my pw first... I reached bugis at about 12 then i went around looking at some books in the second-hand bookshop then Pei Ying called me to find out where I am (Quite unexpected since she always avoid me...) then we met up and continued looking for books for at least 20 mins before Leonardo came.... After that we had lunch at macdonalds before deciding to go to my house for pw meeting... where they found out how pretty my sister was and what a ugly brother she had.... *>.<*..... and my father's vocation... Then yixuan joined us for the last 40 mins.... We ended about 3 then i walked them to Tiong Bahru... Play daytona 2 with yixuan (which i lost in the last lap... but i will one day beat her...) then came home.... My mum asked me a few questions when i reached home which is rather sensitive.... She seemed to pick up something during my friends' visit...mmm... Yesterday was fine too... Found some sec 4 girl who is good i think from Tanglin Secondary School who came for DSA.... Hope she come into CJC and save my neck.... Then student conductor which i screwed up and became some kind of joke at the podium.... Too nervous... Bleh conducting is really alot of hard work.... Guess i am not suited for it, i think i am more suitable for the piano.... Furthermore my both arms are still injured from over-exercising... Still havent recovered yet >.<....
Just read Yao Ming's Love Story.... Rather touching and i really admire his long perseverance... If it is me, i think i will just give up..... Well.... He taught me something, love will not just grow mutually.... It takes time and effort to make it happen... Only true love will last over time....

NDP...

2007-08-07T21:17:00.000+08:00

Finally, my much awaited holidays are here..... Yes!!!!!...... One downside though, i have tons of homework to complete and tons of notes to do..... But isn't too bad at least now i dont have to get up at 6 every morning to go to school and i can slowly do my homework throughout of the day.... Not sure what i want to do during the holidays yet, but i have a feeling mostly of it will be studying....
Well my past week was more relaxed compared to my previous week.... Now most focus is put on both of my work and investiture things for the outgoing J2s.... Though i not gonna miss the tedious band practices i had too soon, i wanna to build up more on my personal and social life first... Perhaps i should start with my classmates first then to my bandmates =p.... If not i gonna get another Anti-Joey Campaign launched by Super-Anti Joey Club again... Lol..... Should start by being nicer to girls since they are so vengeful... however it is proving harder than i thought lol....
Well, another interesting event of the week was perhaps the combined practice with AJC... Played some interesting songs with them, sadly their only percussionist is not here... the most interesting things for that day was the SL/SC course, learned alot of stuff about conducting and how to hold sectionals, that sparked off alittle interest on me conducting..... but... Guess i dont have the talent to conduct... maybe i can 'discover' the talent when i try conducting the band =p....

Been thinking too much lately... Is there even hope there for me?... Am i just deceiving myself?.... Perhaps theres not any hope left..... Bleh.... Hate the low confidence i have....

Concerts =)...

2007-07-28T22:56:00.000+08:00

Finally, my concert "season" has ended..... 3 concerts in a row is very very demanding mentally..... Well the pac concert was ok considering i only practised like for 2 days on the 2 pieces.... With the pieces came the timpani solo (which i only got it right only on the performace itself, maybe cos i am nervous or something since it is such a simple rhythm...) and xylophone part (never got it right... too many running notes...further shows how weak i am zzz....)..... but i hated going back home after 8 for that 2 days including the PAC rehersal day....

Well yesterday, did the bin up with audrey, amanda, chuyuan, heimun and alvin.... with support from the rest.... The final product was good considering we took only 3 hours to complete... =D.... Had alot of fun doing it up =p....

Today's practice is a mega big wake up call..... Realise how long i have to go and train to reach the j2 percussion standard.... I can't get the basics right while i can get all the complicated stuff right.... zzz..... Thats a very weird weakness...... Well.... I should really start to practise more.. Well hope to get to joachim or daniel standard someday.... Must really work hard.... And hope all the rest of the section can progress together smoothly =).....

Bleh..... I gonna have a heavy day tmr.... Tons of maths hw, Revision for econs test and Score studying.... >.<....

Love is such a mysterious thing, it just hits you when you least expected it...... Even on a person you never thought of loving before...... How funny it works.... >.<......

Bored...

2007-07-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

Haha bored.... Just looked at Yixuan's blog....

Please read the rules first: Each player of the game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you'll need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

1. I like talking to myself whenever i have the time

2. I hate studying despite i am being seen studying at all times

3. I like weird girls.....

4. I tend sleepwalk or sit up in my sleep at night... scared my seniors during camp once

5. I actually love to stalk people

6. I like to dao ppl... <--- actually i dunno what to write already

Well dont sabo others... =p

Busy Week...

2007-07-22T20:40:00.000+08:00

What a busy week.... Tuesday had presentation night..... Really had a lot of fun during that night and i am so glad i am never going to play Roman Festival again.... It is really very very boring playing that piece at least 100 times, and trying to perfect it..... Well... Though it might not be the best we did since SYF however, I am sure the crowd was thrilled with it especially with Japanese Grafitti XI......

Finally on Thursday and Friday i turned up for alumni band practice after 2 weeks..... What a slacker i am >.<..... But i manage to catch up really fast and manage to get some fun percussion parts such as the vibraslap and oceandrum solos =D...... Well.... The concert yesterday at UCC was also a hit.... We manage to thrill the crowd and get them really heated up =D..... And i look good in the full black with that bright pink tie.... So cool =D......

Well this week at class was not too bad either.... Had quite abit of fun during racial harmony day.... Too bad i did not have ethnic costume for myself.... >.<.... Perhaps next year.... I drew on Chu Yuan's hand.... and the drawing was not too bad.... A good attempt for starters =).... Well.... Not much events after that.... but it seems that everyone is uptight about PTM yesterday.... Hope everyone survived it well..... I know how it feels when the teacher kills you during PTM during the time i am in SJI.... It is never good.... Well.... Hope the rest of their weekends was ok.... >.<..... Time to buck up guys..... Study smart and i am sure you all can do better than me.... We are in the same school because of our similar capabilities at studying.... so i am pretty confident you all can do well =)....

Wish my life is filled with love.... With love from someone i really care for.... >.<.....

Sunday times....

2007-07-15T21:29:00.000+08:00

Finally got back all my results..... From overall, it was not too bad compared to others... In fact i think i did well..... If i have cut down my careless mistakes and question mis-interpretation i guess i will be doing much better.... Well... Must take note of that when i do my paper in the final years...... Btw, it will be a chaotic week next week..... Tuesday and Saturday will be filled with concerts.... and PTM next saturday..... My parents can't turn up on that day.... so perhaps my home tutor will re-arrange another date to see them..... I guess she is relatively happy of my results so i don't think i will get badly screwed by her during the personal ptm....

Well..... Finally Lee Zheng returned my msg... 2 weeks after the tornado in anhui..... I am so glad that she is still alive..... I nearly thought that she was dead since she took so long to reply..... Well at least my prayers are answered and she is safe and sound =)..... Well.... She really played a important role in my life being one the very very few girls i know during my secondary school life, one who is willing to listen to my problems (not through real talking, more of through msn and snail mails).... Though she is in far far away China, but she is still close my heart..... =)... Well, hope to see her real soon.... Realise how important she was recently.... =)....

Results...

2007-07-12T22:08:00.001+08:00

Got back results... All the results were not too bad though i am rather disappointed with my h2 results.... I think i can do much better than that level of marks and it is still lower than my expectations.... Haiz.... I must do better the next time..... However... I am happy over my GP results despite being the lowest out of all my results..... I know i am actually very lucky indeed... despite my crappy results i am still able to at least pass it =D.... For some reason i am happy over poorer results than good results..... Haiz.... Maybe it is just me.... Tmr will be taking back economics.... Guess i will not be the top, but do decently is good enough since i screw up one question totally....
Oh yea.... Changed seats today.... Was not too bad, at least much better than sitting infront.... Nice to sit beside jiffsen and alvin for a change.... =D.... But i am sure some people will not be too estatic in changing their seats.... especially pei ying lol.....
It been days since she last contacted me..... Please be alright.... Please stay safe.... I still have so much to tell you.....

School reopening....

2007-07-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

School re-opened yesterday.... And... The first thing in the morning got screwed during history... Seems that i got a question answered totally wrong.... I gonna just sub pass it i guess.... Haiz.... However the rest of yesterday and today was not too bad... At least none of the teachers told me my results yet....

Yesterday's band practice was alright... Only rather boring.... Not exactly fun playing Jap Graft XI over and over again for the 3rd concert... Especially for percussion >.<.... However, seems that alot happened during the June holidays.. Even Sir looks and talking rather sadly..... Well all things will turn out right.....

I think i am starting to like someone.... However.... It may just be another false alarm i guess.... Well its late... Better get some sleep now...

Class outing....

2007-07-02T19:55:00.000+08:00

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.You are not be feeling so good at this time. Everything seems to be getting on top of you. What you need is a rest from all of the the present trials and tribulations in peaceful surroundings and with someone - male or female, it doesn't really matter - who can really understand you and appreciates your needs.Enough is enough - but the problems never seem to stop. They never stop. You feel, and maybe you are right, that the problems seem to go on and on and you have indeed had more than your fair share of trials and tribulations. But to give you credit - you bounce back time and time again - you stick to your beliefs because deep down you have that inner knowledge, that 'belief' system that in the end, everything will turn out OK - and you are right -it will!You are experiencing extreme frustration at this point of time, trying to achieve security and peace of mind, but whatever you seem to do doesn't effect the situation. You are worn out and your energy is being seriously depleted. You may be experiencing what is known as 'heartache' - both mentally and physically. You are a listener and you listen and respond to everything that is going on around you. You feel that all that life has to offer should be within your grasp and you would like to participate in every part of it but the situation is such that every door seems to be closed to you. You just can't understand why that is. But it is - and what's more you feel powerless to change it.You are completely worn out - physically and mentally - and it has got to the stage where 'you don't want to participate anymore'. You are in fact experiencing what is known as 'burnout' and your reaction is such that you feel that everyone is against you yet you still seem to refuse to listen to reason. You are hostile, bitter and indignant. You insist that you want and are entitled to your own way - well maybe you are, but your attitude is not conducive to making friends. Take it easy. Let go and get back into the World.

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm <---- Colourgenics test...

Haha did this test.... From what they say, it sounds damn true.... I think i am damn exhausted from the affairs around me... And how much i wish i have someone to share my troubles with... >.<....

Btw.... Today's "class outing" rocks... Though only like Chu yuan, Wan yu, Yi xuan, Audrey and Pei ying turned up... We really had alot of fun.... First we had breakfast/lunch at Burger King then we went cycling.... After that we went playing pool when Pei ying had to leave... With Yi xuan's help.. Chu Yuan managed to learn pool and she rocks in it =D.... After that we played lan... We played all the from 10 am to 6.30 pm.... It really rocks and i never had fun for a such a long time....It is like 10000000000000x better than the previous outing...=D....

However i am not really happy with the turn out.... I know that a few of classmates had their reasons for not coming... but it will not be so much that half the class didn't turn up.... Furthermore... i have like 4 people smsing at close to 5 -10 mins interval to inform me that they are not coming... It is so obvious that they are coming together to skip the outing.... Somemore... Some don't even have the minds of their own... When one of their friends don't come... He don't come too... And others follow suit... Please.... This is a class outing... not a friend to friend outing.... Sometimes... I really wish they have a mind.... Haiz.... Furthermore... I know what the hell you all were up too..... Please... At least inform me.... At least have the damn cheek to tell me so... I will not mind... You all know how much frustration i have to go through to contact you all and try to persuade u all to come... At least have the heart to tell me what is happening....

Sorry for the offensive paragraph... Can't keep everything to myself.... I have to speak my mind out if not I will burst with all those anger in me..... zzzz....

Btw on a happier tone... I finally after many many gazillion years... I got the sports carnival photos =D... I think i look better last time lol.... Without specs and braces =D...

Exams...

2007-06-26T08:53:00.000+08:00

Take the Magic: The Gathering 'What Color Are You?' Quiz.

Lol was bored and done the quiz for fun..... It sounds quite true about me sometimes lol.....

History exams was ok (don't dare to say good just in case i screw up badly)... Well all the questions were easy to attempt except the essay question for SEA about nationalism after WWII.... Took a risk and attempted the question... Hope i got it correct =D.... I am just happy to pass that paper cos getting Bs is already a huge miracle...

Today's paper is economics.... I am like last minute studying.... Hope can get what i need into my head before the exam.... I will like the gift of photogenic memory sometimes... Will be damn helpful now... I don't think i will get A or B for economics.... but a C will be good.... Same applys to maths tmr... Hope i can do it well too... But so far... All the specimen papers are freaking hard.... >.<.... Hope i can at least get a C and dont let down Mrs. Loke =D.... Ok... Back to study Firms and operations.... bleh... My weakest topic >.<.... Btw..... Happy Belated Birthday Yixuan =D......

Last week....

2007-06-18T15:48:00.000+08:00

Beautiful piece of music
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Sitting before the piano,

Playing a beautiful piece of music,

And my mind wandered off… as I thought of you,

At the endless horizon, walking towards me.

Your picturesque face,

Is more radiant than the moon,

Your body did not radiate the usual proud elegance,

But rather it portrayed an innocent, humble side of you,

I really wish to embrace you,

To have a whiff of your fragrance,

Giving you all my love,

All my warmth,

Giving my life to protect you,

I may not be the best-looking,

The smartest,

Or the most lovable,

But I am sure ,

That I loved you the most in this endless world.

Author: Joey Tan

Haha.... Found another poem i wrote last year..... These poems sure bring back many memories.... Well..... Haven't found the person i will give these poems to yet..... Well... Hope to find her soon =D...

Went to Malaysia, KL, last week, my first ever visit there... I went with my family and relatives..... I dont really adore the 5 hours ride to KL... I will rather take the plane next time... Well, we spent only 3 days, 2 nights there... I found it rather short but i got most of the things i wanted.... I expected KL to be as developed as Singapore but it was rather disappointing... Other than that... I had abit of fun there...

Saturday's outing had only half the class turn up and most of the people who i usually mixed around with weren't there... Did nothing much except playing some pool and having dinner.... Perhaps i will organise another outing next time, this time with more interesting activities.... I will like to go ECP =D... I miss cycling and kayaking.....

Lastly.... Been studying quite intensively for the past few days..... Finished maths notes, half of economics and just started with history..... Well i have no idea how to do the history notes so i am just reading to revise =D.... History exam this saturday.... Hope i can do well and minimum pass the exam =D...... Ok gotta go have a short nap then study again =)....

Holidays

2007-06-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

Holidays started about 2 weeks ago.... Been busy going for extra lessons, outings and band practices (current/alumni)..... Well accomplished quite a few things too.... Played drumset for the first time during a band practice after 5 years i guess, played a xylophone solo with band for the first time in my entire life, watch pirates movie, learned some useful stuff from studies etc.... I havent been touching my revision stuff alot for the last 2 weeks... Better start studying now i guess.....

I found this new song... It is called Berceuse in D flat by Chopin which also means in French lullaby..... It is very smooth and meant to showcase both the technique and the ability to express by the player... It is technically very challenging and it is hard to express too due to the technical aspects of the music.... It will be hard to pay attention to the expression part with the right hand part making alot of noise to show off its virtuosity... I am so determined to master this song... It really can impress a crowd when played and meanwhile capturing their hearts at the same time.... but.... It will take a long time to master... It is one of the hardest songs i have seen so far... Well... Time to brush up on practising (if i had practise at least one hour a day i think i would have gotten my grade 8 by sec 1.... I am just too lazy lol....) and master this song =D....

Well... I am on spectacles now.... My eyesight is failing me these days so my dad brought me to the optician on Monday and made a pair of spectacles.... Actually i look slightly weird with spectacles... Maybe slightly worse looking lol...... And.... I gonna be on braces by end of these holidays..... Ouch.... Just pulled out 4 teeth this week... It is damn uncomfortable..... Wish i will be on and off braces soon...... By end of this holidays, i bet alot of my friends might not recognise me anymore lol.....

I went out for project work meeting just now.... Only Kubo and Peiying turned up.... >.<.... however we still managed to go through some stuff and did some research.... so the outing was not wasted.... And.... I got to see her too.... So not entirely a loss lol...... -----------------------

The Last

Time is getting away from me slowly,

My life may be coming to an end,

2 roads, 2 different endings,

Death is nothing to me in the past,

I have no fear of it,

After meeting u,

I realized death could take me away easily,

And I will be losing u,

And for the first time of my life, I felt fear in dying,

In this very short period of time

I fell in love with u slowly,

Although your words rarely contain the I love I desire so much,

I wonder if u love me as much I as I love u,

Now I am reaching the forked paths of my life,

I wonder will I live,

Or die,

All I want to say to you is,

That,

I love you,

And continue down my path,

If unfortunately, death chosen me,

I will always be watching u from afar,

Protecting u with what left of me.

Cause you are my eternal love

Author: Joey Tan

Haha... One poem i wrote last year just found it in my computer.... In literature sense it might not be a good poem but hope you people like it....

This question has been bugging me for a long time already.... I wonder when i ever will see "her".... The one who will be my companion for the rest of my life.... I dont really expect much, but only one who can share my troubles, worries and one who can appreciate for who i am.... One who can appreciate my piano music and enjoy it with me..... One who can tell me outrightly when i do wrong.... One who can point out my mistakes... One who can let me cry in her arms.... One who I willing sacrifice my time, my life to.... Well... It is still early to think of such things actually.... Only thing i can do now is to wait and numb myself with other things like studies or music.....

On a happier tone..... Next week is class outing.... Hope we will have fun and that everyone turns up =D.....

GP...

2007-05-23T11:40:00.000+08:00

What a busy week.... Sunday, my grand mother passed away.... Was quite surprised and sad about it since she was getting better on saturday.... but i know that she finally got her eternal peace and break from the suffering she had for the past few months ever since she was struck with lung cancer..... Rest in peace grand mother.... I believe the Zhang and Tan family will continue to prosper and survive in your name and i promise to take care of my mum when i grow up....

Well.... It was quite a busy time for the last 2 days shuttling between school and my grandmother funeral.... Rather burnt out but not too the extent during the SYF period.... Hopefully i can do well for GP and CSE on thursday and friday with the limited time i have to study....

Btw, CJCSB got into the presentation night... Had quite mixed feelings about it.... I dont want to really see feste romane again but i am quite excited to play for that night.... Well i think june holidays is gonna be filled with more practises again.... Well.... Maybe time to brush up on mallets etc..... I think i gonna get back to the basics during the june holidays.... >.<..... I need to re access how to play the xylo again and i am not very keen too.... I only play for the fun of it and not keep practising to break technical barriers.... It just kills the fun out of it.... Music to me is just a form of medium to let me express my inner emotions while enjoying it... If you ask me to practise a few hours a day on a particular instrument i think it will just make me hate the instrument and not like it....

Well.... Anyway yesterday was the last day of school, had quite alot of stuff to bring home and i even volunteered to help my friend bring home some files... Well, i did relatively well for history with 11.5 / 25 mark for my SEA essay =D though i think i should deserve a little higher.... Never mind... I will perform better for the mid years and pass that history paper =D.... Well i will miss some of my classmates during the holidays.... especially someone.... Time to get out a time table to allocate time to studies and exercise during the holidays... Must try to aim for the best results in school especially for H2 subjects and not lose to Peiying (i believe she is working really hard to get me down) and lose some of excess weight and pass that fitness test =D....

Ok gotta get some rest then further revision on GP... >.<.....

Fragile Life...

2007-05-19T22:03:00.000+08:00

The past 3 days really have been a very tight one for me..... On Thursday, suddenly during chinese lesson i received a call from my mum that my grandmother's condition was critical.... That was really shocking as my grandmother was rather active and talking on Sunday when i ate KFC buddy meal with her and my sister... I went down and saw her relying on the support of oxygen, her eyes rolled up and unable to talk.... That was really scary but she sort of got better in the late evening so i went for SJI alumni practice.... On friday after the tedious sports carnival i received another call from my mum that my grandmother's condition suddenly worsen again then i rushed down and my grandmother was barely opening her eyes and breathing very heavily.... Even the nurses told us to do final preparations.... but she got better this morning and i just came back from seeing her.... She is much better with her eyes more open compared to last night....
It was scary that my grandmother who was really very active last night suddenly got stricken with lung cancer.... Cancer was so swift, such a healthy person, in a blink of an eye became so weak.... >.<.... Really very scary.... 3/4 of grand parents got cancer.... I guess i got a very high chance of getting it too.... >.<.... Well i leave it to fate...
Well.... Sometimes i find it hard to tell my grandmother things... but.... I really want to thank her for taking care of my mother and me for the last 16 years.... She really love us alot and did alot of things to please and take care of us.... Thank you for everything and you will certainly have a place in my heart =)...
Anyway back to more happier things.... Haha... The girls in my section and class formed the Anti Joey Club (A.J.C)... I guess i have a very very very good talent of irritating girls.... better start to be nice to them if not they gonna kill me or something =p.....

Monday =)

2007-05-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

Finally monday again...... Well finally for once i reached home before 6 in a long long time..... And had a good sleep and time to do homework.... =)... However i sort of missing band alittle now... perhaps the intensive practise made me get used to the band after school system... i need to get used to being free now... =)

Been thinking for the past 3 weeks already...... After round and round of intensive practise in band made me realise something.... That perhaps percussion is not really my kind... Already 10 years i am playing percussion without any professional help and it is really a big miracle for me to make it this far despite having damn screwed up basics.... I tend to learn all the harder stuff first before getting my basics right.... I remembered when i first picked up a pair of mallet sticks... I just straight away play the xylo w/o getting the correct stick grip etc... After close to ten years in percussion, percussion instruments is getting sort of tiring to look at and my interest in percussion is sort of sapping away slowly but surely..... I am thinking of switching to other instruments like flute cos i know i might not have any chance in stepping into the professional musical world out there and in addition, music is another channel for me to express feelings and my inner emotions, and not for competitions etc. .... Only those who see me perform on the piano before know how much emotion i input into playing the instrument and i dont really bother enhancing techniques.... I want to at learn another instrument b4 i leave the band world after next year.... Perhaps from there spark off another interest in learning another instrument..... After that i might not even touch a band instrument again.... Maybe the only instrument i will only touch is the piano.... However the chance of me getting to pick up another instrument is very minimal, it will be hard to convince to my conductor to let me change... And i know how much interestand hope he wants to put into me into perfecting my mallet techniques.... Haiz.... Nvm i see how things go first....

Anyway I realise something.... I got a damn good ability to irritate girls..... I treat girls in 2 very extremely different ways, either i irritate them till breaking point or i treat them very very nicely...... Sadly.... Those who i treated very well don't really remember me in the end... Only those i irritated became one of few better friends in my life lol..... Actually one became my gf... but that is in the past so lets not rmb it =)....Somemore usually when i irritate a girl because i treat her as a friend or like her >.<.... What a weird habit.... Haha.... I better not irritate the girl behind me(Peiying) too much anymore if not i think she will really kill me someday =p.....

2007-05-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

Finally after a month of very very hard work + ever increasing stress, it really paid off.... We got GOLD =)... Haha even though i did not see the initial reaction of the band but i bet they are really happy about it.... Too bad i was with my sister at a duet exam in her school >.< i would love to see how they reacted to the result....
Today is the day i have never seen a month... A full day of rest.... Did not do much today other than hanging around the computer and packing up my very very very very messy table.... Only touched a few maths sum... I think i better start working hard tmr.... I need to start maintaining my results if not my sweetie ( Peiying ) will beat me =p.....
Well next week also happened to be the submission of GPP... I think i better starting contributing more to my group after abandoning them for band for the past one month... I think i will start taking the group as a leader next week and hopefully finish up the GPP well enough to impress the teacher in charge =)....

Stress

2007-05-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

Well another busy week for me again.... Well had exchange at MJC yesterday and so far the bands we heard were quite good and going for the gold/gwh.....More stress to do well and not screw up.... However today soundcheck at Singapore Conference Hall wasnt too bad.... Other than me sound damn loud (as usual screw up) on the marimba.... The rest were good and Jiffsen sounded good too =D.... Maybe we can do it =D....
Bleh still so much school work to go and not to forget Project work.... Hope i can get through it fast and next week will pass fast enough =)....

Stress....

2007-05-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

Been hell of a week and it is gonna continue for at least until next friday..... Band practice is getting stressful by each practice and so much pressure is on me to play well on the marimba for safari.... >.<.... I still cannot forget the screw up in syf 2 years ago... wish it wouldnt happen again >.<.....

Furthermore.... My class academic results are getting bad to worse.... For almost all the h2 subjects we are still lagging behind many classes....I been doing not too bad in class but the difference in my academic level compared to the rest of the class is worlds apart.... Alot of stress for me to do well >.<.... I really do not know how to motivate the class to study.... well... hopefully they will wake up and start studying... I really miss the times in SJI when i fail all my test and yet feel stress free about it....

I am cooping too many things and stress within me.... I really wish there is someone out there who can share my troubles.....

Sick...

2007-04-24T11:08:00.000+08:00

Finally after a long year i fell sick >.<.... High fever(39 degrees) and diarrhoea (10 times!!!!!) persisted the whole of last night... It was a very very bad nightmare..... Luckily fever went down in the early morning and the diarrhoea is beginning to stop =)...

Haha... My sitting partner (yixuan) did not go to school today too.... I bet ppl are thinking whether i spread my virus to her too.... =p... I bet peiying and ziyi is missing us by now =p... Anyway i missed 2 tests today... i think i have to take them tmr during break... haiz ... >.<...

I am just not suitable... I have to get that idea out of my head.... >.<

Life...

2007-04-22T21:17:00.000+08:00

Just came back from the hospital from visiting my grandmother.... Well it was rather emotional just now cos my grandmother was close to crying... She is sad that she only had a a short period of time to live.... This really make me realise how short life is.... Well i better start cherishing everything around me before i leave this world.....

Anyway, tmr will be the first day when the new sitting plan will be implemented... I hope this will change the class situation for the better and i will have new sitting partners =).... Argh... alot of tests next week too... hope i survive well....

My mind is so pre-occupied with something today.... With someone..... >.<.....

=)

2007-04-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

Well... as expected i am in cjc now lol..... Well.... I am rather happy to be back to cjc lol.... 1T09 is damn close as a class in the first weeks and i guess we enjoy the time together but now cracks are starting to surface within the class.... Cliques etc...... Well... I done up a new sitting plan for the class hope that will change everything......

Also the past few weeks since school started, i done not bad for all the tests so far but personal life sort of getting affected... Day in and out is revolving around school and once i reach home the time i have left is for homework then bedtime... The cycle repeats again everyday... then saturday is practically band time too... haiz.... Damn boring..... And i dont really have much time to talk to my other friends >.<.... But anyway.... 1T09 have a class CIP at IMH today... It is not really a full class with only 9 ppl turn up.... I guess it is due to some reason or another... However... The CIP was great... The patients in IMH are really nice and very smart... I got beaten in several rounds of checkers by the patients... Bleh they are really good..... Well i have a picture of my class at it =D....

Whats that wierd feeling....

Time passes....

2007-03-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

It is such a long long time since i post..... Prelims, O levels, first 3 months, release of O lvl result had already happened..... So many things had already happened...Well i did pretty badly for prelims but luckily i got not-too-bad results for o lvls.... My regrets are not studying for English and Sciences well enough >.<.... To think i have 6 distinctions and i only got 12 points... >.<..... Anyway posting results are gonna be out tmr morning... I really hope that i enter into TJC (my dream school).. but i know chances are so slim.... very slim...... Well i will be happy in CJC if i get posted to there in the end... They are really like a family... =)... Well Good luck to my friends into getting their dream schools... May god bless =D...

Sunday Post

2006-08-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

Rather busy week..... Piano preliums and mug mug mug mug mug mug....................... My piano preliums was too long..... =(, i think i have to change the slow song to other songs.... maybe some impressionistic songs..... Music preliums is next week and i am screwed i guess.... Must mug mug mug mug mug.....

Seems that the Kozumi Shrine visit is really getting alot of negative views in so many countries including singapore.... but i think it is fine if you look at it at another view.... the military view....
Japan only started developing at the late 1800s, however within a short span of 50 years, it defeated Russia, a western power, in a naval war..... Actually this war is the pride of all asians at that time.... And this small power nearly managed to conquer the whole of asia (including the superpower china)...... The military tatics are superb..... and so few in the past managed to conquer such a large piece of land in such a short time.... and those japanese troops are so fiercely loyal and resorted to kamakazi.... I bet not all the troops in the world are willing to do so....

It is good to ponder on my view i guess....

Wish i can make a very good friend to her =)))) Good luck to lee zheng in her new school =)

Sunday Post

2006-08-13T20:52:00.000+08:00

AP finally ended... And so is my participation in band..... Sort of miss it but i have to move on and adapt to other bands..... First i gotta lose weight.... i am a fat drummer =(....... Wish I could enter TJC and into their band and pit against the SJIMB dominated JC bands (CJC and SAJC) in SYF 2007... That will be so fun......

Friday, i finally got back my O lvl chinese result.... I thought i will get like B3 but surprising i got A1 and i am one those few who get it.... But i need another 5 more A1s but thats a long long way to go damm....... And my english is gonna get b3 for sure....

Tmr is English oral and i am down with a flu.... I am so screwed..... so fucking screwed....

Is she the one..... The one that is destined to be my other half? I wonder.........................

Count Down...

2006-08-05T22:04:00.000+08:00

So few days left to my 4th and last AP..... When I was secondary one.... I played the tenor drum... The last drummer who ever used the cerimonial tenor drum on field... I still cannot forget the effort put in to learn this unique drum.... The blood dripping from my injured hands after practising that instrument. When I was secondary2..... I was playing the lyra.... the instrument which I still hold dearly to my heart.....the only SL who ever played the lyra..... When I was sec 3.... I was playing the snare drum... the drum who is forbidden to most of the lyra players before me.... Now in sec 4, it will be last time i ever lead my section and the band in to a parade..... May god bless me............

To think i passed my music test.... It was a mircale.... My song is totally so daring so unique yet so crazy.... Perhaps i will be the next famous composer after beethoven =).........

Investiture Camp 2006

2006-07-30T21:47:00.000+08:00

3.8 Years in the band really pass be so quickly... I remember the first day i step into SJIMB, when i first saw my batch... my section.... the glory of the band.... the beautiful music the band played.... My sec. 1 year was filled with boring technical stuff and very fearful leaders (Jonathan Peh)... I was the first secondary one to play with the main band during renassiance and for Investiture....... My sec 2. was very eventful with the best batch of Sec 4 drummers that i ever seen, Melvin Loh, Ryan Kok and Geraldson Santos..... It is filled with endless laughter (Melvin Loh Jokes....), band unity/pride (Marching Assesment Practices), important life lessons (Lester Lim Wise Teaching, Geraldson Santos displinary lessons, Ryan Kok teaching for lyra, Kevin drilling sessions etc.) and memorable events (MA, Renassiance etc.). I was made the Acting Assistant Section Leader and got promoted unofficially to acting section leader. My sec 3 year is filled with many important tasks, like preparation for SYF 2006, Renassiance etc. This year is also filled with many obstacles that i faced while being the odd one out from my batch.... Daniel guided me through my SL duties and the troubles i faced in band, i am very grateful for his guidance throughout this time.... Sec 4 is almost filled with the same old work (after being SL for one year) but neverless filled with some batch disputes etc. But after the perth trip, all disputes are forgotten and friendship is rebuilt again.....

Thanks for all the ex-bandsmen and current bandsmen for contributing to these fruitful 4 yrs in the band, nothing can ever replace such precious experience.... May god bless the band...

Sun post

2006-07-23T14:57:00.000+08:00

Been a very busy week for me..... Was sick on wednesday then i risk my life to come back for ap rehersal........ Thursday english oral was a total screw up i think i am gonna have private one to one oral examination tution with Mrs Sandra lee...... not a good sign.... Friday, another screwed up test for both harmony and music history, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

The end is near.... so near....

Sat Post

2006-07-08T21:57:00.000+08:00

This week is a rather busy week. Wednesday there is TKGSSB concert. They are a wonderful band, nice tone and almost perfect tuning..... But important factors to take note of... Percussion section..... You all really need a stable drumset player... You all really made incredibles song sound like a symphony.... You all have a good mallet percussion player.... You all need to start muting after every note played.... I love your bass drum alot.............Trombones need to come out alittle more.... Sadly i dun like the choice of songs... Too many slow songs.... Need to have more fun and fast songs.... Remember most of the audience are non musicians.... I love the clarinet and bassoon tone..... Nice saxophone tone but need to be more relaxed and laid back....

AP practise..... Lol i love the practise..... Finally after 4 long years.... I get to play the sl solo in front of the whole sji community!!!!! Well the band is still pretty blur of the song sequence... and i was shouting vulagrities at them for the non stop mistakes they made.....

Hope you like those purple paper flowers....

Bloody Headache...

2006-07-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

Bloodly headache again zzz....... Nothing much happened today, i just lie around and do homework and sleep.... Can't go for milk run cos of headache.... Damm pain.....
I wanna be a composer and virtuoso some day.... I wanna compose like Tschaikowsky (Many different spellings for his name)... However i lack 2 factors.... First he is a homosexual i am not =) He has depression and i dont (do i?)...... I wanna play like michael tan someday.... Imagine myself playing the Timpani Duo on Esplanade concert hall with a beautiful partner...... *I gotta stop dreaming =-P.....* I gonna be the most famous percussionist some day and i will work towards it =)

Sry if i irritate you too much.... I am just lonely and need someone to talk to....

New Top 6

2006-06-29T20:57:00.000+08:00

Finally after 3 years of hard work... The new top 6 have step forward.... Actually i know the result of the top 6 at monday but i can only blog now =)........

Dm:Ian Chai
This is the post i wanted i last time =p I dont really talk to this guy but i can see that he will be a good leader.... Next year will be a tough year for you but have confidence in yourself and the band.... Always keep moving on...

QMs: Zhibin , Leong Wei jie
I know this two guys are really very hardworking... I dont really know zhibin well but he is a like replica of Dominic, i believe ur years with dom will help you greatly in the qm job, it will be stressful as next yr is the syf year, believe it or not, people tend to wear out their reeds very fast next year =)... Weijie.... You are a really hardworking guy just that ur drummming is still lack of potential... Go practise more on the bass, i believe u can make it...

CS/CL: Lucas
I also dunno this guy well but it isnt easy to be cas and cl at the same time.... And i guess u will be the busiest guy in band but i think u can make it through easily =).....

ROs: Dong Seok and Pingyi
Time for you two to be very good friends.... You all need it when it comes to teaching sec 1s (I never liked the RO job because of teaching) Dong seok u are very mature and understanding and tons of patience... I believe you can teach the sec 1s very well =) Pingyi... I believe u can adapt to the ro job very easily... Though i believe you are suppose to go higher but yea circumstances is just not right... But i have faith in you =)...

SLs: Ibrahim, Wong weijie, Zachary, Jun Hang( sorry if spelling is wrong), Osman Khan, Brent tan, Garbiel Chin, Mark, Xue yu, Melvin Tan
Sl is the hardest post in the band.... I been my section sl for close to two years and it isnt easy... if your sls pick you all for this job, it means that you all are very capable leaders.... Top 6 is nothing without the sls.... Good luck to you guys in handling your section for syf next year =)!!!!

Sec 3 batch
I really admire you guys.... Your batch is very united in my eyes.... You all really inspired me for my past 3 years in band.... My batch isnt too good cos we are not united resulting in backstabbing etc.... Hope your batch will do the band proud next year and get the gold in SYF =)...

Sunday post =)

2006-06-25T17:56:00.000+08:00

Past few days i was reflecting on what happened in perth but something really saddens me.... It is the behaviour of the sec 4 batch.... I know it is already quite bad to gossip about some one, it is forgivable because it is human nature.... But we dont have to totally ignore this guy because we think that he is some type of alien or something..... Whats worse is that it started from a leader...... Have you forgotten your own values or what.... I might not be a perfect person, i do gossip, i do hate ppl, i do have my own bad points.... but i know what is called respect... and i still respect the people i dont like.... I will not publicly shame the guy infront of public...... and i also came through emotional setbacks so i know how it feels when people insult you.......

Talked to her last night, she is rather upset over her relationship with another person.... I cant help but i sincerely hope that she can get through it =)..... if you are reading this which i hope not.... i know it is hard for you but no matter what may god give you the strength to get through it...

Finally...

2006-06-23T20:24:00.000+08:00

After almost a year i am finally back to blogging..... Such a long long long time since i blog... Now after a year i am still SL and the section is still up and going.... I just came back from perth trip.... It is fun though the nights there are so lonely..... I finally saw many different sides of each of the sec 3s and sec 2s...... I think the sec 3 behaviours have earned them merit and demerit points from the top 8 i guess...... And what was predicted at 2003 had been fulfilled...... The split is very obvious now between the bagpipers and main band...... I wonder what will happen in the future inside sjimb..... But i fulfilled what i could do in the section and band already and it is now up to them to pass on the passion....

Coming to my social life.... It has been rather peaceful *maybe due to the fact that i dun have a girlfriend....* But this girl has caught my eye recently, it is not her looks that attracted me, it is how she talks and behave that attracted my sight... however now i gotta go study more and earn enough money to go for plastic surgery first b4 i ever try to find a girlfriend =p...

Solo Recording....

2005-04-23T18:13:00.000+08:00

Finally..... I have my own piano recording in a cd........ yea....... Try playing a Schubert piece on a C100 yamaha piano....... I did it.........

Mid Year...

2005-04-22T20:55:00.000+08:00

Mid year exams for me next week..... Haiz....... Better get down to studying music........ Fugue is not equal to fugaro..... wtf........

Have alot problems with certain people recently becoz of the incident........ Well........ I don't know if people hate me or not......... I know what i done is correct........ My life is turned around this year.... What should not happen happened....... What I dont think will happen happened.... Life is so unexpected........ Well maybe i am sensitive....... I am feeling pain......... I wish i could get back to my old normal way of life.... Haiz.......

Sun Post

2005-04-17T14:17:00.000+08:00

Finally..... I lost friendship and made enemies..... Why things come to this stage..... Mistrust? Misconception? Why........

Sat Daily Post

2005-04-16T07:52:00.000+08:00

It is a free Saturday again... Yea.... Yesterday, i went for music lesson at MGS, Jared was scolding STFU. What shock me is that a neighbourhood school girl told Jared to was his mouth....haha.... I always thought neighbourhood school people use more vulgar language than us in the SJI....... On thursday, came down for sat parade.... Tried Tarot cards with Mark Lim, turns out to be that my love life is super good, sucky past, bright present and a very true character card... My character card was the card of the wilderness angel, a angel who is wise and learns from experiences finally becoming a enlighten angel in heaven.. The reading is super true though.... Now.... after SFY.... realise my batch has alots of problems than before.... Tim chua and Shaun ware gonna hate me for that incident..... Leo is in deep shit.... Our batch is somewhat splitting apart....... Who will know the future.......

Lonely...

2005-04-15T19:00:00.000+08:00

Lonely as I can be.....
Walking down the road......
Tears rolling down my face......
Thousand spears piercing my heart......
The sun has disappeared from the sky.....
Misconception, lies behind my back....
If I had a chance....
I will not live the past again....

By: Joey Tan

Silver...

2005-04-12T15:54:00.000+08:00

SJIMB got silver. Woah.... We did so well.... From 2 weeks ago, a cop standard band to a Silver is a really big mircale..... We worked so hard, this is our achievement........ Drum section we did well though i screw up (hahahaha.....) Now back to the normal band parade as usual.... Finally getting to play different pieces and not the 2 pieces over and over and over and over and over......again. Spenting my time to study...... I had given up hope on a post.... Giving me relief and finally letting me let a normal secondary 3 life...... No point killing my batch over on the top posts..... Whats the point.... Getting hurt in the way...... Now spenting maybe my last time with my section as a asl...... But now i am free from all the stress.... Time to get a life haha.....

SYF 2005

2005-04-02T17:16:00.000+08:00

It is ages since I posted so many things had happened after that, new class in sec 3, new subjects, instructor course and many more.... It is only 9 days before SYF, and Mr Lim sound confident that we gonna not even make it to silver.... Problems is everywhere.... Mid Year Exams (Music) in 3 weeks after SYF..... A question still hangs in the hearts whether we can make it to gold, my aims for top 7 post has gone from my mind, pressure is builting on the sectionals leaders....... Timothy Arlvin and Leonard must wake up....... I must not play with one hand...... My chimes too bloody soft.......

Sad....

2004-10-12T06:15:00.000+08:00

What the hell, why did the individual said that, on ashiq, geraldson, jacky pay and my blog. We did not wrong in trying to keep up the disicipline in band up, I only ask my sec1s to come back on wed after exams to pack the condemm instrutments. I admit i do pump them but all of it are for several reasons such as being absent for no reason, dropping of instrutment and many more. This is done to keep up the disicipline in the band and to "kill" them. I do have certain powers in my section, but i use it only when needed. Ashiq and Geraldson are both bs whoes duty is to keep up the disicipline of the WHOLE band which is a tougher job than mine. We are sjimb and not sjisb, we preserve many tradidions many other bands in singapore doesn't have. Our CCA is more strict than ncc, even though our seniors pump us, we still respect them and after band seniors are much more relaxed than ever...

Band Camp

2004-09-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

Yea maybe Rishi is just playful though but he might need alot of time to make him more "stable". I think this year band camp will be a better one than last year, a fruitful one.... Maybe this year band camp can change Rishi way of thinking....

Last day of band...

2004-09-09T19:00:00.000+08:00

It is the last day of band, sad sia..... Today, we done circuits again which is identical to the one on tuesday.... Mr. Lim gave us a speech about the card he receive from the sec 3s and what is the sjimb about.. Quite Enlightening... Mr. Lim is a good conductor He taught me how to speak up and increase my self-esteem. If the main band remembered, Mr. Lim scolded me in band saying the i have low self-esteem for the WHOLE parade. This made me open up to my seniors... (For Your Information, I did not even talk to dainel outside band until march) His words made me talk, then i stop daoing the other seniors too... He in a way uses his words to "teach me"... After band, i pump my Sec1s and i am doing push-ups like mad. Then after that i do AQM stuff and i "died"...

Sick...

2004-08-31T20:53:00.000+08:00

Today damm sick but still drag myself to school to hand in my GCE O level music course selection form.... Went back to my old primary, it is a long long time i did not talk to any girls my age..... Felt abit shy first but very quickly adapt to it.... Now the girls are not only rough but brave.... They ask very embrassing questions to boys which struck me dumb.... And the worst thing is that they dicuss puberty among themselves like it is very common in front of me.... The best is that i am the second tallest in the class lol...

Beaten up....

2004-08-26T19:16:00.000+08:00

Ouch.... Was beaten by leonard because he is not happy of playing the tenor drum.... Ok, i admit i am lousier snare drummer than him and i am not as fit as him., but he has no respect me as a friend and a section member though, maybe he hate me commanding him, lol.... Now i am tending to my blue black wounds, ouch.....

Cip....

2004-08-22T19:06:00.000+08:00

Cip was very tiring today. I walked with dominic, kane and de yong. We have only 100 dollars altogether which is only a fraction of a sec one who got 18o dollars.... Tried playing grade 8 abrsm 2005-2006 pieces which is abit simple but very, very long. I have to take my grade 7 trinity college exam first to get to try the pieces ( I failed grade 8 abrsm last year because i did not get my grade 7 cert yet...)

Sec one...

2004-08-20T17:57:00.000+08:00

Two days ago is the secondary one parade, my first time leading the sec ones since the starting of the year. I still asked permission to fall in, and Geraldson reminded me that i no need to sound to fall in... lol...... I do not what to do at all, so Dainel told me to bring them to have sectionals, to teach them drum solos. And i found out that 4 sec ones cannot even roll.... At end of the band, Dainel came up to me and asked me to pump the whole section 20 for the monday assembly and 10 for that day. I asked them to fall in and i pump them, after band, the sec 2s come to me and say that i am sadistic, lol..... They told me that i am the first of all the new Asls and Aasls to pump the most, that is abit sad though.

Study

2004-08-11T19:25:00.000+08:00

Common test is finally over for the lower secondary, i think i can good grades for maths but maybe a passing grade for Chemistry, but the sad thing is that my section, secondary 3, 2 ,1 (other than me) has not studied..... Sad Thing.... After school, leonard came up to me and sad then he has offically lost lost about 18 marks from maths as he did not complete his maths paper, and he think that he going to fail chemistry surely... Haizzzzz.......

AP

2004-08-06T21:18:00.000+08:00

The parade was not bad with some very minor mistakes here and there, I am now feeling damm sad, when the Sec 4 pass out, I nearly cried, the most i will miss is my mentor, SGT. Ryan Kok, he taught the staff of playing a lyra, some drum solos and even taught me to do library stuff, though he held no high post but I respect him highly. Now, that I am the AASL of the Drum Section, I need to seriously change my ways of life first :
1) Wake up 6.00 am in the morning to jog 2.4km in the weekends or holidays
2) During the weekdays, I will run 3.4km after school
3) I will do 100 sit-ups every day when i am free or during recesses
4) I will do 40 push-ups every day and slowly increase the amount
5) I will eat lesser food, dont eat recess unless i have band, and stop drinking soft drink
6) I will drink 8 litres of water daily
7) I will not smile but keep a straight face unless i see something funny
8) Learn well my drum solos and marches
9) Try to lose more weight

Shocked...

2004-07-31T14:22:00.000+08:00

Damm shocked today, after band today, i was shocked to be informed that my section is getting a new assistant section leader to assist the sectional leader in 2004. And the ASL could be anyone in my batch. I thought it would be disturbing harmony, one example is that a few months before, I and timonty was awarded the section badge, as only 2 in my batch can get it. That day leonard did not came so on monday, after knowing the news, told my class (we are the same class) that i got the section by default as he was not there so i was awarded the section badge. You see he was passed down the SL drum cord by the SL of 2003 so he was "defined" as the best in my section. LOL... You see how a small section badge can disrupt the harmony in my section and hurt people. Thats why i wish the post of the ASL would not cause anything serious in my batch.

Tired......

2004-07-30T19:27:00.000+08:00

Still filling damm sick this morning, I am sneezing all the way to school. I finally decided to not run as a competitive runner for the 4.8km run. My team has 3 runners who retreated from the 4.8km run. To my utter surprise, i came in 6th in class, 2nd in the sec2 band batch( after shawn from flute section) for the mass run, and maybe one of the top 50 in the whole school. Now, my legs recovering from the run, while writing the this blog, i am searching for a new blogskin soon.

Haiz...

2004-07-29T19:05:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a very bad, firstly i am soaked in the rain while cheering, that is not the worst, i lost my way to the bus stop and ended up in suntec city, :( . Today i am feeling damm sick, i had a flu and a fever, but i dragged myself to school, i was made to run for competition for the 4.8km run tomorrow, i know i am rather big sized but all the runners are either sick or unwilling to run so i am the number 12 in class for running for 2.4km of 12min and 48 secs and was made to run.
Haizzzzz........

Tired

2004-07-26T18:11:00.000+08:00

Today damm tired, change about 10 blog designs finally settling on this one, today after school went to collect drumset from PAC. Pls tag if you are my friend and leave a blog address. ty

My First Blog

2004-07-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

My first blog! I am very happy after spenting 2 hours doing this. Kindred Spirits Rocks! My performace in the afternoon is full of technical problems though but at night it rocks! Spent a bomb on my black long sleeve shirt for the concert. The morning sucks though, i am marching on the water logged field full of steep holes, the good thing is that my cerimonials is loaned to a sec one so i have only my concert attire to wash!